mutter as the memory of 105 holding hands with Natalie comes flooding back.
My mom and dad stare at each other, their faces washed gray in the dusk. My mom nods to my dad as if to signal him to go on.
My dad takes a deep breath. “You were right to worry about 105,” he says. “Sadie called us a few days ago. She said that Johnny Jay, Alcatraz 105, aka Onion, worked as a gardener at the Esther P. Marinoff School for a few weeks and then he disappeared. Apparently, he faked his references and they didn’t know his background. They only found out because they discovered a letter he wrote to Natalie.”
I swallow a big gulp of air. “A letter? He wrote her a letter?”
My father bites his lip. “Yes.”
“What kind of a letter?”
He groans, stares out the window at the guard tower. “A love letter,” he whispers.
I look at Nat, who is concentrating on her button box. She has taken all of her buttons out and she’s putting them back in a new order.
“The letter said 105 loves her?” I ask.
My father makes a clicking noise. “It was a goodbye love letter, isn’t that right, Helen? It said he was going back home to Portland for good.”
“Everyone at the Esther P. Marinoff knows who he is now,” my mom whispers. “They aren’t going to let him anywhere near Natalie.”
“The man lied about his references. Can’t blame him for that. Hard enough to get a job with half the country out of work. It’s impossible if you’ve got a record.” My dad shakes his head. “It’s not going to be easy to prove he put a bar spreader in Natalie’s suitcase.”
“We won’t need to prove that. We won’t be prosecuting,” my mother snaps.
My father splits a toothpick in two. “Of course we will, Helen.”
“Over my dead body.” My mother’s voice has gone cold as a cadaver. “The papers get ahold of this and what do you think will happen? Think this through, Cam.”
“Crazy Daughter of Alcatraz Guard Aids Escape,” I say, “but the cons never got the bar spreader. Natalie didn’t help the cons to escape; she helped stop them from escaping.”
“I know what she did. You know what she did,” my mother says. “But what will some reporter who wants a sensational story make of it? We can’t have that much attention focused on Natalie. The warden will kick us out of here. He’ll have no choice.”
My father shakes his head. “Why didn’t you tell us about this, Moose?”
“Same reason we didn’t tell
“He should have told us.” My father sighs. “Nobody can do this all alone. Nobody has all the pieces. We need each other.”
“And what if Moose had told you? You would have run up to the warden in a heartbeat. We’d be off the island with no means of support and no way to pay for the Esther P. Marinoff School. You think Moose doesn’t know all that?” My mom is on the edge of her seat. Her chest is heaving from the force of her words.
“It wasn’t the right thing to do,” my father insists.
“In a perfect world you’d be right,” my mom answers.
“Helen, come on. Look what happened here. The whole place fell apart.”
“The bar spreader didn’t cause that. The bar spreader didn’t do anything but prop up a seven-year-old’s pretend ponies,” my mom tells him.
“Okay,” my father says, “but it could have. We got lucky is all.”
My mom leans in, her pupils so large they take over the brown of her eyes. “Maybe we did, but like you said, there’s enough blame to go around here, Cam. The warden is going to dig the deepest hole he can and bury this. He’s going to see the light just like Trixle did. Do you think he wants to give a report to J. Edgar Hoover that says everything fell apart while he was throwing a party? The only people who really were on top of the situation were
“Kids Apprehend Escaping Prisoners,” I say.
“The kids. We kids. We,” Natalie mutters like she’s practicing for Sadie.
“We need to tell the warden about this, Helen.” My father’s voice is calm but deadly firm.
“We will do no such thing,” my mother answers.
“Helen.” My father’s eyes bore a hole into her. “I can’t live this way. We will tell the warden and we’ll see what happens. But you’re probably correct,” he concedes. “So long as the press doesn’t get wind of it, the warden will most likely let this go.”
My mom doesn’t answer, but I think she knows she’s lost this one. Her silence is consent.
“And from now on I want to know what’s going on, you understand?” My father points a toothpick at me.
“Natalie caused problem. Natalie. I caused problems,” Nat mutters.
“No, you didn’t, sweet pea,” my dad tells her. “You made me proud and don’t you forget it.”
“I am a trooper,” Nat whispers. “I am. Me.”
My father walks over to where I’m sitting with Natalie. He pats my shoulder awkwardly and gently touches her hair. “We’re a family of troopers. We’ll get through this, Helen, the same way we always do… by doing the right thing.”
36. KIDS ON THE ROCK
Sunday, September 22, 1935
Eventually things settle down. Whether this is because of the talk my father has with the warden or not, I really don’t know. But the sudden fear that hit our island disappears and everything goes back to the way it was-almost everything anyway. Associate Warden Chudley is demoted. The warden finally realized what my dad and everyone else had known for some time. He was not up to his job.
But the biggest change as far as I’m concerned occurs among us kids. What happened when the cons tried to escape changed the way we think about each other. Each of us contributed something important that dark afternoon. Janet saw Theresa running down from up top and she came out with her bullhorn. Theresa found out she’d been right about the importance of Mae’s hummingbird hanky. Jimmy figured out what was going on and snuck down under the dock to set loose his flies to swarm the cons at exactly the right moment. Natalie’s attention to detail helped her spot the fake guns and let me know about them in her own unique way. Annie made use of that perfect pitching arm. And Piper discovered that deep down inside she might just have it in her to love her baby brother.
But it wasn’t just that. It was what Mrs. Mattaman said too… about how everybody disappoints you at one time or another and you have to forgive people. That seemed to make a difference too.
At the parade grounds today, Annie throws the first pitch and we all find our places. Jimmy is catcher. He still can’t throw to save his life, but he taught himself to catch pretty well-not bad at all. Theresa is shortstop and I’m on first base. Janet Trixle is up at bat and Natalie is the ump calling the pitches, which she does with machine-like accuracy. And of course Annie chucks her perfect pitches over the base one after another.
Not surprisingly, Piper isn’t here… some things never change.
After we’re done playing, Jimmy and Annie and I are walking back down to 64 building when I tell Jimmy it’s too bad he had to let all his flies go and he says, “You don’t care about flies.”
“Yes, I do,” I insist.
“You try to, but that’s different.” He nods toward Annie. “Annie’s never liked the flies, but she told me right at the start. It’s easier that way. This island is too small for pretending.”
I feel the slap in his words and I really want to tell him he’s wrong, but he’s not. “Sorry, Jim,” I say.
He shrugs, takes his glasses off, and cleans them on the tail of his shirt. “We’re all sorry about something,” he says.
“What are you sorry about?” I ask hopefully. I hate to be the only guy who messed up.
“Telling Scout about the secret passageway.”
“Yeah, why’d you do that anyway?”
Jimmy shrugs and rubs his glasses harder. “I thought you were going to tell Scout yourself; I wanted to beat you to the punch. And I was hoping Scout’s opinion of me would… you know.”
“Rise above the status of dead girl?” I ask.
He grins into his glasses.
“I’m not sure which is worse, dead girl or auntie,” Annie complains, shifting her baseball pants the way a guy would.
“Okey-dokey is what I said,” I tell her.
“This is supposed to make me feel better?” Annie snaps. “Not that I care. I’ve never been sweet on you, Moose. I’ve always thought you were a slug.”
“Well thank you,” I say, looking out across the bay where a flock of pelicans are flying in awkward formation.
“You’re welcome.” She smiles a little. “I have no idea why my mother would say that. It couldn’t be further from the truth.”
“No offense, Annie, but your mom has some nutty ideas. She and her needlepoint…” I tell her.
Annie snorts. “Moose, Moose, Moose, don’t get me started on that. My mom thinks you love needlepoint.”
“It’s hard to tell when he likes something and when he doesn’t,” Jimmy grumbles.
I wish Jimmy would let up.
Annie’s big lips pucker like she’s thinking about this. “But that’s what we like about him too, isn’t it?” Annie looks past me to Jimmy. “That he tries so hard with everyone.”
I’m glad Annie has said this. I am just being nice. What’s the matter with that? But then I remember walking onto the boat with Seven Fingers’s arm choking my throat, One Arm marching Natalie across, Buddy dragging Piper.
