Selected short stories -1892-1895- translated by Constance Garnett

Evidently that was all he wanted, that she should be married; and it was evident that he despised her and that she only excited in him an interest of a special kind as though she were an immoral and disreputable woman. And when the feeling of triumph and love for her husband were mingled in her soul with humiliation and wounded pride, she was overcome by a spirit of defiance, and longed to sit on the box, to shout and whistle to the horses.

Just as they passed the nunnery the huge hundred-ton bell rang out. Rita crossed herself.

'Our Olga is in that nunnery,' said Sofya Lvovna, and she, too, crossed herself and shuddered.

'Why did she go into the nunnery?' said the Colonel.

'Par depit,' Rita answered crossly, with obvious allusion to Sofya's marrying Yagitch. 'Par depit is all the fashion nowadays. Defiance of all the world. She was always laughing, a desperate flirt, fond of nothing but balls and young men, and all of a sudden off she went -- to surprise every one!'

'That's not true,' said Volodya, turning down the collar of his fur coat and showing his handsome face. 'It wasn't a case of par depit; it was simply horrible, if you like. Her brother Dmitri was sent to penal servitude, and they don't know where he is now. And her mother died of grief.'

He turned up his collar again.

'Olga did well,' he added in a muffled voice. 'Living as an adopted child, and with such a paragon as Sofya Lvovna, -- one must take that into consideration too!'

Sofya Lvovna heard a tone of contempt in his voice, and longed to say something rude to him, but she said nothing. The spirit of defiance came over her again; she stood up again and shouted in a tearful voice:

'I want to go to the early service! Driver, back! I want to see Olga.'

They turned back. The nunnery bell had a deep note, and Sofya Lvovna fancied there was something in it that reminded her of Olga and her life. The other church bells began ringing too. When the driver stopped the horses, Sofya Lvovna jumped out of the sledge and, unescorted and alone, went quickly up to the gate.

'Make haste, please!' her husband called to her. 'It's late already.'

She went in at the dark gateway, then by the avenue that led from the gate to the chief church. The snow crunched under her feet, and the ringing was just above her head, and seemed to vibrate through her whole being. Here was the church door, then three steps down, and an ante-room with ikons of the saints on both sides, a fragrance of juniper and incense, another door, and a dark figure opening it and bowing very low. The service had not yet begun. One nun was walking by the ikon-screen and lighting the candles on the tall standard candlesticks, another was lighting the chandelier. Here and there, by the columns and the side chapels, there stood black, motionless figures. 'I suppose they must remain standing as they are now till the morning,' thought Sofya Lvovna, and it seemed to her dark, cold, and dreary -- drearier than a graveyard. She looked with a feeling of dreariness at the still, motionless figures and suddenly felt a pang at her heart. For some reason, in one short nun, with thin shoulders and a black kerchief on her head, she recognised Olga, though when Olga went into the nunnery she had been plump and had looked taller. Hesitating and extremely agitated, Sofya Lvovna went up to the nun, and looking over her shoulder into her face, recognised her as Olga.

'Olga!' she cried, throwing up her hands, and could not speak from emotion. 'Olga!'

The nun knew her at once; she raised her eyebrows in surprise, and her pale, freshly washed face, and even, it seemed, the white headcloth that she wore under her wimple, beamed with pleasure.

'What a miracle from God!' she said, and she, too, threw up her thin, pale little hands.

Sofya Lvovna hugged her and kissed her warmly, and was afraid as she did so that she might smell of spirits.

'We were just driving past, and we thought of you,' she said, breathing hard, as though she had been running. 'Dear me! How pale you are! I . . . I'm very glad to see you. Well, tell me how are you? Are you dull?'

Sofya Lvovna looked round at the other nuns, and went on in a subdued voice:

'There've been so many changes at home . . . you know, I'm married to Colonel Yagitch. You remember him, no doubt. . . . I am very happy with him.'

'Well, thank God for that. And is your father quite well?

'Yes, he is quite well. He often speaks of you. You must come and see us during the holidays, Olga, won't you?'

'I will come,' said Olga, and she smiled. 'I'll come on the second day.'

Sofya Lvovna began crying, she did not know why, and for a minute she shed tears in silence, then she wiped her eyes and said:

'Rita will be very sorry not to have seen you. She is with us too. And Volodya's here. They are close to the gate. How pleased they'd be if you'd come out and see them. Let's go out to them; the service hasn't begun yet.''

'Let us,' Olga agreed. She crossed herself three times and went out with Sofya Lvovna to the entrance.

'So you say you're happy, Sonitchka?' she asked when they came out at the gate.

'Very.'

'Well, thank God for that.'

The two Volodyas, seeing the nun, got out of the sledge and greeted her respectfully. Both were visibly touched by her pale face and her black monastic dress, and both were pleased that she had remembered them and come to greet them. That she might not be cold, Sofya Lvovna wrapped her up in a rug and put one half of her fur coat round her. Her tears had relieved and purified her heart, and she was glad that this noisy, restless, and, in reality, impure night should unexpectedly end so purely and serenely. And to keep Olga by her a little longer she suggested:

'Let us take her for a drive! Get in, Olga; we'll go a little way.'

The men expected the nun to refuse -- saints don't dash about in three-horse sledges; but to their surprise, she consented and got into the sledge. And while the horses were galloping to the city gate all were silent, and only