blows, he said imploringly:
'Olya!'
And expecting her to say something else awful, he leaned back in his chair, and his huge figure seemed as helplessly childish as his smile.
'Olya, how could you say it?' he whispered.
Olga Mihalovna came to herself. She was suddenly aware of her passionate love for this man, remembered that he was her husband, Pyotr Dmitritch, without whom she could not live for a day, and who loved her passionately, too. She burst into loud sobs that sounded strange and unlike her, and ran back to her bedroom.
She fell on the bed, and short hysterical sobs, choking her and making her arms and legs twitch, filled the bedroom. Remembering there was a visitor sleeping three or four rooms away, she buried her head under the pillow to stifle her sobs, but the pillow rolled on to the floor, and she almost fell on the floor herself when she stooped to pick it up. She pulled the quilt up to her face, but her hands would not obey her, but tore convulsively at everything she clutched.
She thought that everything was lost, that the falsehood she had told to wound her husband had shattered her life into fragments. Her husband would not forgive her. The insult she had hurled at him was not one that could be effaced by any caresses, by any vows. . . . How could she convince her husband that she did not believe what she had said?
'It's all over, it's all over!' she cried, not noticing that the pillow had slipped on to the floor again. 'For God's sake, for God's sake!'
Probably roused by her cries, the guest and the servants were now awake; next day all the neighbourhood would know that she had been in hysterics and would blame Pyotr Dmitritch. She made an effort to restrain herself, but her sobs grew louder and louder every minute.
'For God's sake,' she cried in a voice not like her own, and not knowing why she cried it. 'For God's sake!'
She felt as though the bed were heaving under her and her feet were entangled in the bed-clothes. Pyotr Dmitritch, in his dressing-gown, with a candle in his hand, came into the bedroom.
'Olya, hush!' he said.
She raised herself, and kneeling up in bed, screwing up her eyes at the light, articulated through her sobs:
'Understand . . . understand! . . . .'
She wanted to tell him that she was tired to death by the party, by his falsity, by her own falsity, that it had all worked together, but she could only articulate:
'Understand . . . understand!'
'Come, drink!' he said, handing her some water.
She took the glass obediently and began drinking, but the water splashed over and was spilt on her arms, her throat and knees.
'I must look horribly unseemly,' she thought.
Pyotr Dmitritch put her back in bed without a word, and covered her with the quilt, then he took the candle and went out.
'For God's sake!' Olga Mihalovna cried again. 'Pyotr, understand, understand!'
Suddenly something gripped her in the lower part of her body and back with such violence that her wailing was cut short, and she bit the pillow from the pain. But the pain let her go again at once, and she began sobbing again.
The maid came in, and arranging the quilt over her, asked in alarm:
'Mistress, darling, what is the matter?'
'Go out of the room,' said Pyotr Dmitritch sternly, going up to the bed.
'Understand . . . understand! . . .' Olga Mihalovna began.
'Olya, I entreat you, calm yourself,' he said. 'I did not mean to hurt you. I would not have gone out of the room if I had known it would have hurt you so much; I simply felt depressed. I tell you, on my honour . . .'
'Understand! . . . You were lying, I was lying. . . .'
'I understand. . . . Come, come, that's enough! I understand,' said Pyotr Dmitritch tenderly, sitting down on her bed. 'You said that in anger; I quite understand. I swear to God I love you beyond anything on earth, and when I married you I never once thought of your being rich. I loved you immensely, and that's all . . . I assure you. I have never been in want of money or felt the value of it, and so I cannot feel the difference between your fortune and mine. It always seemed to me we were equally well off. And that I have been deceitful in little things, that . . . of course, is true. My life has hitherto been arranged in such a frivolous way that it has somehow been impossible to get on without paltry lying. It weighs on me, too, now. . . . Let us leave off talking about it, for goodness' sake!'
Olga Mihalovna again felt in acute pain, and clutched her husband by the sleeve.
'I am in pain, in pain, in pain . . .' she said rapidly. 'Oh, what pain!'
'Damnation take those visitors!' muttered Pyotr Dmitritch, getting up. 'You ought not to have gone to the island to-day!' he cried. 'What an idiot I was not to prevent you! Oh, my God!'
He scratched his head in vexation, and, with a wave of his hand, walked out of the room.
Then he came into the room several times, sat down on the bed beside her, and talked a great deal, sometimes tenderly, sometimes angrily, but she hardly heard him. Her sobs were continually interrupted by fearful attacks of pain, and each time the pain was more acute and prolonged. At first she held her breath and bit the pillow during the pain, but then she began screaming on an unseemly piercing note. Once seeing her husband near her, she remembered that she had insulted him, and without pausing to think whether it were really Pyotr Dmitritch or whether she were in delirium, clutched his hand in both hers and began kissing it.
'You were lying, I was lying . . .' she began justifying herself. 'Understand, understand. . . . They have exhausted me, driven me out of all patience.'
'Olya, we are not alone,' said Pyotr Dmitritch.
Olga Mihalovna raised her head and saw Varvara, who was kneeling by the chest of drawers and pulling out the bottom drawer. The top drawers were already open. Then Varvara got up, red from the strained position, and with a cold, solemn face began trying to unlock a box.
'Marya, I can't unlock it!' she said in a whisper. 'You unlock it, won't you?'
Marya, the maid, was digging a candle end out of the candlestick with a pair of scissors, so as to put in a new candle; she went up to Varvara and helped her to unlock the box.
'There should be nothing locked . . .' whispered Varvara. 'Unlock this basket, too, my good girl. Master,' she said, 'you should send to Father Mihail to unlock the holy gates! You must!'
'Do what you like,' said Pyotr Dmitritch, breathing hard, 'only, for God's sake, make haste and fetch the doctor or the midwife! Has Vassily gone? Send some one else. Send your husband!'
'It's the birth,' Olga Mihalovna thought. 'Varvara,' she moaned, 'but he won't be born alive!'
'It's all right, it's all right, mistress,' whispered Varvara.
'Please God, he will be alive! he will be alive!'
When Olga Mihalovna came to herself again after a pain she was no longer sobbing nor tossing from side to side, but moaning. She could not refrain from moaning even in the intervals between the pains. The candles were still burning, but the morning light was coming through the blinds. It was probably about five o'clock in the morning. At the round table there was sitting some unknown woman with a very discreet air, wearing a white apron. From her whole appearance it was evident she had been sitting there a long time. Olga Mihalovna guessed that she was the midwife.
'Will it soon be over?' she asked, and in her voice she heard a peculiar and unfamiliar note which had never been there before. 'I must be dying in childbirth,' she thought.
Pyotr Dmitritch came cautiously into the bedroom, dressed for the day, and stood at the window with his back to his wife. He lifted the blind and looked out of window.
'What rain!' he said.
'What time is it?' asked Olga Mihalovna, in order to hear the unfamiliar note in her voice again.
