Dying for Chocolate

“Can’t repeat the past?” he cried incredulously. “Why of course you can!”

—F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

Acknowledgments

The author wishes to acknowledge the assistance of the following people: Jim Davidson; Jeffrey Davidson; J. Z. Davidson; Joey Davidson; Sandra Dijkstra; Katherine Goodwin; Kate Miciak; Karen Johnson and John William Schenk, J. William’s Catering, Bergen Park, Colorado; Rob Esterbrook, Respond Security, Denver; the staff of the Evergreen branch of the Jefferson County Public Library; Ted Ning, M.D.; Thomas P. Campbell, M.D.; John Alston, Ph.D.; Heather Pashley; Melinda Thompson; Emerson Harvey, M.D.; Richard Drake, Ph.D., Department of History, University of Montana, Missoula, Montana; Deidre Elliott, Karen Sbrockey, and Elizabeth Green; the Reverend Connie Delzell; Lee Karr and the group that assembled at her home; Triena Harper, assistant deputy coroner, Jefferson County, and Investigator Richard Millsapps, Jefferson County Sheriff’s Department, Golden, Colorado.

Prayer book quotations are from The Book of Common Prayer, published by The Church Pension Fund.

Elk Park Preparatory School Elk Park, Colorado

June Alumni-Alumnae Brunch

CHAMPAGNE

FRUIT SALAD OF CANTALOUPE,

STRAWBERRIES, KIWI

ENGLISH CHEDDAR STRATA

RASHERS OF BACON

SALLY LUNN BREAD, SAUSAGE CAKE

MACADAMIA-NUT COFFEE CAKE, BLUEBERRY MUFFINS

PRESERVES AND HONEY

COFFEE, TEA

1.

Brunch is a killer. I hate it, and among food people I’m in good company. James Beard found the idea of a heavy meal between meals idiotic. He said, “You don’t have something called lunny-dinny, do you?”

Actually, the reason professional caterers dislike brunch is that it means getting up at an ungodly hour. As I lay in bed at 4:45 the morning of June 3, I realized that in a little over four hours I had sixty people to feed. There were mountains of fruit to slice. Muffins and breads to bake fresh. Thick-sliced bacon to bring to sizzling. Egg strata to cook slowly until layers of hot cheddar melted over warm custard. And finally, there was coffee to grind and brew. In this case, lots and lots of coffee that I would have preferred to have been drowning in.

With eyes closed, I imagined floating in a warm lake of cappuccino. The cocoon of pima cotton sheets and down comforter begged me to stay, to ignore the upcoming meal.

But no. The lake of predawn consciousness yielded a few troublesome bubbles. The Elk Park Prep brunch was a popular annual gathering to which my ex-husband, Dr. John Richard Korman, might wangle a ticket. This would not be fun for anyone.

Without thinking I touched my right thumb, the one he had broken in three places with a hammer a month before we finally divorced, four years ago. Anyone else would have said, Four years without abuse? You must feel safe now.

But I never felt safe. Especially now.

Here’s why. In the last month John Richard had started acting strange. Or rather, stranger than usual. In the evenings he had taken to driving slowly past my house off Main Street in Aspen Meadow. He called repeatedly, then hung up. One afternoon his lawyer phoned and threatened a reduction in child support for our eleven-year-old son Arch. That night, John Richard drove more slowly than ever past the house.

Given John Richard’s violent temperament, I’d decided that Arch and I should vacate the house for a while. I’d accepted a summer job. General Bo and Adele Farquhar had just moved from the suburbs of Washington, D.C., to the Aspen Meadow Country Club area. They’d built a Victorian-style mansion on land Adele had owned for years. This was where I was now, between sheets I’d only seen in ads, under a comforter I’d only dreamed about. Arch and I occupied two bedrooms on the top level of the enormous (three floors plus basement) gingerbread-trimmed residence. I didn’t know why the Farquhars, wealthy, childless, and in their early fifties, needed such a huge place. But that was not my concern. What was my concern was that they both hated to cook.

Adele had said they needed someone to take charge of the mammoth kitchen with its state-of-the-art gadgets and appliances. Lucky for me, their kitchen had passed the eagle eye of the county health inspector. So I had jumped at the chance to become a temporary live-in cook in exchange for a haven. During the summer, this was also the center for my business, Goldilocks’ Catering, Where Everything Is Just Right! Also lucky for me, the income from the job and the business was enough to send Arch to the summer session at Elk Park Prep, where I was catering this morning.

Best of all, the Farquhars’ house had more alarms than the Denver Mint.

I opened my eyes and studied the sloped ceiling of my new bedroom. The gray light of five A.M. seeped through Belgian lace curtains and licked the edges of the room. There was no movement on the floor below; Adele and the general were still asleep.

Outside, a fierce June wind pummeled the house. Branches slapped against the gutters of the other guest room on the third floor, but there was no noise from Arch. When he was little, he would awaken if the doorbell rang. Now he could snore through wind, through hail, through the unfamiliar creaks of this museumlike house.

Arch had not wanted to move. I had promised it was just for two months, while new doors, windows, and a security system were installed in our old house. Insofar as possible, I had tried to put Dr. John Richard Korman— whose initials and behavior had led his other ex-wife and me to dub him The Jerk—out of my mind as well as out of my presence. Unfortunately, I did not know if he would be making an appearance at Elk Park Prep’s annual brunch.

My second problem with this highly publicized meal: A man I Was seeing was going to be there. The renewal of my relationship with Philip Miller, a local shrink, resembled those silver mines they’re always reopening in Colorado. The vein may still be strong and the price of silver has just gone up. Philip’s large blue eyes and so-happy-to-see-me smile had heated up my social life, no question about it. That’s why they called it old flame, right? Anyway, I wanted to see Philip, but not at the expense of a confrontation with The Jerk.

The wind slammed against the house, causing it to crack and moan. A stray branch scuttled across the roof. In late spring the Rocky Mountains frequently spin off a chilly whip of air to announce a cold front. Wind screamed through the window jambs. Then it died and the undaunted mating call of a robin pierced the air.

I did a few stretching exercises before checking the thermometer on the windowsill: thirty-four degrees, with ominous clouds to boot. Nice June weather. I slid out onto the floor and eased my body through the yoga positions of Cobra, Morning Star, Locust. My spiritual life is an amalgam of yoga, transcendental meditation, and