12. MUSE, ?UNINTENDED?
Chapter 16 I couldn‘t imagine my life without Jacob now — I cringed away from the idea of even trying to imagine that. Somehow, he‘d become essential to my survival. But to leave things the way they were… was that cruel, as Mike had accused?
I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother. I realized now that all I really wanted was a claim on him. It didn‘t feel brotherly when he held me like this. It just felt nice — warm and comforting and familiar. Safe. Jacob was a safe harbor.
I could stake a claim. I had that much within my power.
I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.
13. DIDO, ?WHITE FLAG?
Chapter 20 I‘d never seen anything more beautiful — even as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.
14. HOOBASTANK, ?THE REASON?
Edward‘s perspective
Chapter 23 ?I only left you in the first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy, human life. I could see what I was doing to you — keeping you constantly on the edge of danger, taking you away from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment I was with you. So I had to try. I had to do something, and it seemed like leaving was the only way. If I hadn‘t thought you would be better off, I could have never made myself leave. I‘m much too selfish. Only you could be more important than what I wanted… what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I‘ll never be strong enough to leave again.?
1. ELBOW, ?MEXICAN STANDOFF?
Jacob‘s perspective
Chapter 1 ?What part of ?mortal enemies‘ is too complicated for you…??
2. COLDPLAY, ?CLOCKS?
Chapter 1 ?I thought the timing was still undecided,? Edward reminded me softly. ?You might enjoy a semester or two of college. There are a lot of human experiences you‘ve never had.?
?I‘ll get to those afterward.?
?They won‘t be
3. BLUE OCTOBER, ?OVERWEIGHT? [RADIO EDIT]
Jacob‘s perspective
?If Jacob hadn‘t helped me… I‘m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.?
Chapter 1 ?Please just listen for a minute. This is so much more important than some whim to drop in on an old friend. Jacob is in pain.? My voice distorted around the word. ?I can‘t not try to help him — I can‘t give up on him now, when he needs me. Just because he‘s not human all the time… Well, he was there for me when I was… not so human myself. You don‘t know what it was like…. ? I hesitated. Edward‘s arms were rigid around me; his hands were in fists now, the tendons standing out. ?If Jacob hadn‘t helped me… I‘m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.?
4. KEANE, ?HAMBURG SONG?
Jacob‘s perspective
Chapter 3 Jacob dropped the antagonistic facade completely. It was like he‘d forgotten Edward was there, or at least he was determined to act that way. ?I miss you every day, Bella.
It‘s not the same without you.?
5. THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS, ?STAB MY BACK?
Jacob‘s perspective
Chapter 8 ?Don‘t worry about me,? he insisted, smiling with deliberate cheer, too brightly. ?I know what I‘m doing. Just tell me if I‘m upsetting you.?
6. MUSE, ?THE SMALL PRINT?
Jacob‘s perspective
Chapter 8 ?Will you never forgive me, Jacob?? I whispered. As soon as I said the words, I wished I hadn‘t. I didn‘t want to hear his answer.
?You won‘t be Bella anymore,? he told me. ?My friend won‘t exist. There‘ll be no one to forgive.?
7. THE KILLERS, ?MR. BRIGHTSIDE?
Edward‘s perspective
Chapter 10 As I turned away from him, I thought I saw a flash of something in his eyes that I wasn‘t supposed to see. I couldn‘t tell for sure what it was exactly. Worry, maybe. For a second I thought it was panic. But I was probably just making something out of nothing, as usual.
Chapter 22 ?The jealousy… it has to be eating at you. You can‘t be as sure of yourself as you seem. Unless you have no emotions at all.?
?Of course it is,? Edward agreed, no longer amused. ?Right now it‘s so bad that I can barely control my voice. Of course, it‘s even worse when she‘s away from me, with you, and I can‘t see her.?
?Do you think about it all the time?? Jacob whispered. ?Does it make it hard to concentrate when she‘s not with you??
