“No,” she said, “we are different.”
“That is heresy, is it not?” he asked.
She turned white, and was silent.
After a time, she turned to the wall, and said, “I hate you.”
“Why?” he asked, puzzled. She had seemed to be pleased but moments before, weeping, crying out for more, begging, subdued, ravished.
“Because you do not put a collar on me, and make me walk behind you,” she said.
“I do not understand,” he said.
“But this is not such a world,” she said.
He did not respond.
“Too,” she said, “you do not know who you are.”
He looked up from his boots.
“That is why you hate me?”
“Yes,” she said.
“Who am I?” he asked.
“A man,” she said.
He shrugged.
“It was so from the first joining of the gametes,” she said.
“What are gametes?” he asked.
“You are not educated, are you?” she asked.
“No,” he said.
“Can you read?” she asked.
“No,” he said.
“From the beginning,” she said, “you were a man, or a male, from the beginning. It was so in the chromosomes.”
“And you, in such things, whatever they may be, were female, or woman?”
“Yes,” she said, “from the beginning, totally that, not other than that, never to be other than that.”
“Interesting,” he said, for he, though not educated, had an inquisitive mind, a lively mind. That there should be two forms of being, and in his own species, was surely worthy of note. This was not, of course, the first female he had held in his arms. There had been others, Tessa, and Lia, and Sut, or Pig, who had put themselves in his way, who had surprised him in the fields, at troughs, in the hay sheds, who had lain on the wooden floors of the varda coops, their smocks thrown off, the slatted shadows of the lath bars falling across their vital, waiting, beautifully curved bodies, an interesting symmetry. His favorite had been Pig. But there had been trouble.
“What is your class?” she asked.
“I am of the
“I, too, am of the
“I am of the peasants,” he said.
She turned back, quickly, to face him.
“You do not have the body of a peasant,” she said. “It is not deformed for the hoe, the plow.”
He stood, belting his tunic. “And what sort of body have I?” he asked.
She slipped from the bed, and came to where he stood, and then she knelt before him, holding to his legs, looking up at him. “Linger,” she said.
He looked down at her, regarding her.
“There are masters and there are slaves,” she said. “Each must learn which he is.”
Oh, he had intended, even before the trouble over Pig, to leave the
“You speak well,” he said, “You are highly intelligent. Can you read?”
“Yes,” she said.
“You were not always of the
“I was once the daughter of a senator of a local municipality, on another world, one far away,” she said.
“You were then of the
“Yes,” she said.”
“But now you kneel naked,” he said.
“It is said that women such as I make the best slaves,” she said.
He supposed that much would depend upon the woman, whatever her class or background, on her capacities for love, her unbridled sexual needs, on her uncontrollable passions, which put her so helplessly at the mercy of masters, on her capacity for loyalty, for diligence, for service, such things. The more intelligent the woman, it was said, the less the need for taming and training. Such, it was said, arrived the most quickly at the deepest understanding of themselves, and were the first to yield themselves up wholly, helplessly, to the fitting raptures of their bondage.
“Beat me,” she said, “Master.”
“You are not a slave,” he said. “Do not say such things.”
It was a saying of slaves. It was not that they wished to be beaten, or seldom was it so. It was rather a way of professing to the master their slavery, that they understood their situation, that they were owned, that they acknowledged his punishment rights over them. The saying is useful, too, in reminding a slave of her bondage. The usual response of the master is the issuance of some innocent command, but the slave knows what might have been done. To be sure, it is a rare slave who does not long, at times, to be reminded of her bondage, that she is truly a slave.
“Where is your father?” he asked.
“He is dead,” she said. “He was ruined, the taxes. He died of drink.”
“And you fled?”
“Yes,” she said.
“And so became of the
“Yes,” she said.