“Have fun, girls,” Gram says.
And then she’s gone, and it’s just me, Sienna, and the bright menu screen. It illuminates the living room, somehow making the whole scene feel more awkward, like there’s a big spotlight beaming down on both of us.
Sienna turns to me, and it’s impossible to read the range of emotions on her face. She’s not wearing as much makeup as she does at school. She looks more the way she did when we were younger, before she learned the virtues of eyeliner and blush. A junior high version of Sienna, naturally beautiful and a touch more innocent.
“You know what I was thinking about today?” she asks.
“What?”
“Do you remember when you wanted that blue Gucci purse?” she asks. “We spent three weeks scouring the malls for it.”
I can’t help but break into a grin. “And I ended up buying that knockoff, but you told everyone in school it was real, and they believed you?”
She’s smiling back at me, a totally unguarded smile, one I haven’t seen for two years. It melts what’s left of my apprehension. “You did the same for me with those Prada boots.”
“You mean Prado?”
We burst out laughing. The ice between us shatters. “It’s better than that Channel jacket you bought at a garage sale.”
My eyes widen. “I didn’t know Chanel only had one n!”
Sienna continues smiling as she leans back into the couch, sinking into the floral cushions. “I’ve missed hanging out with you.”
“Me too. I mean, with you.” I stand abruptly. “I’ll go pop some popcorn,” I say. “Do you want a soda?”
“Sure. Just make sure it’s—”
“Diet. I know.”
It’s strange, how the details come back so quickly, as if the last two years never happened.
I toss the popcorn in the microwave and dig out a big plastic bowl, then fill two glasses with soda and ice. I’m back in the living room in no time, settling down at the opposite end of the couch. The popcorn bowl sits between us.
The movie starts rolling, and I mentally revisit the last time we watched this movie together. We were at Sienna’s house. Fifteen, laughing nonstop, talking about boys and clothes and a million other things that I can’t even remember right now but which seemed so important at the time.
“Do you remember that camping trip we went on?” Sienna asks.
“The one with Steven?” My heart leaps to my throat. That had been the weekend I’d decided I was in love with him.
We drive for two hours, past Podunk logging towns and through old mining areas. Steven is on a mission to get to the camping spot, promising us over and over that it would be worth the long drive. He’s at the wheel of his mom’s SUV, his buddy Craig in the passenger seat. The two of them seem so much older than Sienna and me, sitting just behind them in the backseat. They’re so mature, adult-like. Whenever I’m around them, I feel like a silly kid trying too hard to impress them.
Once we pass the last town, we drive up a winding tree-lined county road. Steven pulls onto a gravel logging road edged by soaring hemlock trees.
Finally, Steven announces that we’re there and parks the SUV. Sienna and I throw the doors open, practically falling out into the warm summer air. It’s early August, nearly eight, the sun falling in the sky, but it’s still warm. Steven rounds the back of the SUV and starts throwing our gear out onto the ground, eventually uncovering our folding chairs in the pile of stuff in the back of the car. He arranges the four chairs so that they’re facing each other, and then puts the tiny folding card table between them.
“We need to get some firewood. Do you think you two can handle the tent? The instructions are in the bag.”
For a second, I think he means me and Sienna. I glance at her, but she’s looking at Craig. Then I realize that Steven wants me to come with him. It’s Sienna and Craig who he’s asking to handle the tent.
Steven claps his hands together, meeting my eyes with a mischievous smile. “Let’s go find some kindling for the fire.”
“Okay,” I say, trying really hard not to look him in the eyes, because if I do, I know I’ll blush.
He’s the only guy who has that effect on me.
He slides a mag light from the loophole on his cargo pants. “But we have to go into the woods.” He flashes it right into my eyes for emphasis.
I bat it away, stars freckling my vision. “Quit it,” I say, but I can hardly feign annoyance. I give up and just grin.
“May I escort you, my lady?” Steven says, in a horribly bad English accent, swirling the mag light in front of him like some kind of sword.
“You may,” I say, adding a faux curtsy. He grins, sticking his elbow out.
My heart hammers harder as I tuck my hand into the crook of his elbow. He leads me away from the banter of Sienna and Craig, their laughter dying as we walk into the darkness. The trees soar out around us, and what little light the moon provides dims as we walk under the canopy of the trees.
“Your birthday is coming up, right?” He glances my way, somehow looking . . . shy? I’ve never seen such a nervous, timid expression in his eyes.
I nod. How did he know? Does that mean something? The whole moment seems glossy, surreal, like something I made up as I was falling asleep. Me gripping Steven’s arm, him pretending I mattered.
He stops abruptly. “Did you hear that?”
I freeze on the needle-covered path, immobile as I strain to hear something. A rustling? A snapping of twigs? Other than the yellow beam of Steven’s flashlight, it’s too dark to see anything in the trees. Somewhere behind us Sienna shrieks, but it’s a playful flirty tone, not the sound of impending danger. I will my heartbeat to slow down enough that I can make out whatever Steven heard. I stand stock-still, my head tipped to the side. My dark bangs slide into my eyes.
“Boo!” Steven hollers in my ear, jerking my arm.
I jump sky-high, putting at least two feet of air between my boots and the damp ground.
By the time I regain my senses, he’s doubled over, laughing as he clutches his side.
“You jerk!” I smack his arm, but I can’t stop giggling.
“Ow! That was uncalled for!” He scowls at me playfully. “Here, hold this.”
I take the flashlight from him, and before I can take another breath, he grabs my waist and throws me over his shoulder, spinning me around as I shriek and playfully beat on his back. Finally, he drops me back to the ground, but it’s hard to let go of his shoulders.
I don’t want to be apart from him.
As he slowly releases my waist, I know what I feel for him is far more than a crush. My heart spasms in my chest and seagulls flap madly in my stomach.
I stand there and stare up into his eyes for a moment too long, hoping he’s going to kiss me. Instead, he clears his throat, taking the flashlight out of my hand. “Well, how about that kindling?”
I blink away the memory as I realize Sienna is waiting for an answer. “Yeah. I remember the trip.”
She pulls a strand of blonde hair and twists it around her finger as she stares at her knees. “I should have known then that you liked him.”
“Why?” I chew on my lip, tasting the salt and butter from the popcorn. I grab another handful and shove it in my mouth, two kernels falling into my lap.
“We all slept in one tent, remember?” She raises an eyebrow and gives me a knowing look. She gulps down a
