Sashenka

28

Neither of them spoke for a long time. The finches serenaded them in the woods, bees danced around the cherry blossoms and the lilacs peeked their white and purple heads through the silvery birches.

As Katinka wept for the grandmother she’d never known, she thought of what Sashenka must have endured during that long, terrifying night in the cold winter of 1940. After a while, Maxy put his arms around her.

“What are we doing here?” she asked finally, slipping out of his arms.

“I did a little more research and found the burial records of Sashenka, Vanya, even Uncle Mendel. After execution, they were cremated and the ashes were buried in the grounds of an NKVD dacha in the birch woods just outside Moscow. Afterward, following NKVD orders on mass graves, raspberry canes and blackberry bushes were planted on the site. Look, there’s a plaque on the tree there.” He pointed.

Here lie buried the remains

of the innocent tortured and executed victims

of the political repressions.

May they never be forgotten!

“She’s here, isn’t she?” said Katinka, standing close to him. He put his arms around her again, and this time she didn’t object.

“Not just her,” he said. “They’re all here, together.”

Evening was falling—that rosy, grainy dusk when it seems as if Moscow is lit from below, not above—as Maxy dropped Katinka back at the Getman mansion. She stood on the steps and waved as he drove off.

When the guards admitted her the house was unusually hushed, but she found Roza in the kitchen.

“You need some chai and honeycakes,” said Roza, giving her a look. Katinka realized that her skin must be raw, and her eyes red. “Sit down.”

Katinka watched as Roza made the tea, adding honey and two teaspoons of brandy to each cup. Her aunt didn’t miss much, she thought.

“Here,” said Roza, “drink this. We both need it. Don’t worry about your father. I was rushing him too much. You know, I can still see that sturdy little boy with his beloved rabbit at our dacha. I’ve thought of him like that all my life and I’ve been aching to find him again—but of course, I don’t know him anymore. Will you tell me what to do?”

“Yes, yes, of course,” said Katinka, still reeling from what she had learned with Maxy, her mind stalked by visions of Sashenka’s death. She suddenly longed to share what she knew, to tell Roza everything, to work out exactly how death had come to Sashenka, how it had happened, and how she had looked—what Satinov had seen. “I’ve got something else to show you,” she said, drawing out a wad of photocopied papers from her backpack.

“Wait,” answered Roza. “Before I look at that, I want to ask you—I know my father was shot but you said there was something unusual…How did my mother die?”

“I was just about to come to that,” said Katinka but something made her keep the papers close to her.

She took a breath, eager to go on, but as she did so she saw Sashenka in the snow, her skin white in the electric glare of the searchlights…and Satinov, horrified, standing before Sashenka just minutes later. If he had really broken, if he hadn’t supervised the other 122 executions with Stalinist toughness immediately afterward, then he too would have been tortured until he revealed how he had rescued Sashenka’s children…

Katinka sensed Roza’s gentle but penetrating gaze on her, and she shook herself—there were some secrets she should keep.

She looked into Roza’s intelligent, violet eyes and saw that she was tensed, ready to absorb this blow too. Instead she took her hands. “Like the others. She died just like the others.”

Roza held her stare and then smiled. “I thought so. That’s good to know. But what were you going to show me?”

Katinka deftly put the investigation into Sashenka’s death at the back of her papers so that another document was on top. “I’ve got a few things I was given by Kuzma the archive rat, including this, your mother’s confession. I hadn’t read it in full because she gave them two hundred pages of crazy confessions of secret meetings with enemy agents and her plot to kill Stalin by spraying cyanide onto the gramophone at the dacha—all to give Satinov time to settle you and Carlo with your families. But there’s one bit that sounds strange. May I read it to you?”

Accused Zeitlin-Palitsyn: In 1933, as a reward from the Party for our work, Vanya and I were allowed to seek treatment for my neurasthenia in London. We visited a well-known clinic in Harley Street called the Cushion House, where, under cover of medical treatment, we met agents of the British secret service and Trotsky himself, who asked us to arrange the assassination of Comrade Stalin.

Interrogator Mogilchuk: At the Cushion House?

Accused Zeitlin-Palitsyn: Yes.

“This ‘Cushion House’ is an odd name, even in English,” explained Katinka. “I checked it. There’s never been a Cushion House anywhere in London, ever. Does it ring a bell?”

Roza started to laugh. “Come with me.” She took Katinka’s hand and led her upstairs to her tidy bedroom. “Do you see?” she asked.

“What?” asked Katinka.

“Look!” She pointed at her bed. “Here!” Roza picked up a ragged old cushion, the material so threadbare and motheaten it was almost transparent, so bleached by time it was nearly white. “This was Cushion, moya Podoushka, the companion of my childhood and the only thing I could take with me to my new existence.”

She hugged it like a baby.

“You see how she remembered me?” said Roza. “My mother was telling me that she loved me, wasn’t she? She was sending me a message. So that if I ever found out who I really was, I’d know that she always loved me.”

The air in the room was suddenly taut and Roza turned her back on Katinka and looked out of the window.

“Is there anything else in there that seems strange?” she asked, hopefully, and Katinka understood that she wanted something to offer her brother.

“Yes, now I see what she was doing, there is something. You said my father loved rabbits. Well, in the confession, Sashenka says she and Vanya hid some of the cyanide in the rabbit hutch—of all places—at the dacha. So I think she left something for him too…”

“I’d like to tell him that myself,” said Roza, “but I don’t want to do anything to upset him. I thought I might wait a bit and then call him and perhaps go down to see him. What do you think?”

“Of course, but don’t leave it too long,” smiled Katinka, “will you?”

29

It had been an extraordinary day, Katinka thought as she came downstairs. But it was not quite over yet.

As she crossed the spacious hall toward the kitchen, she heard a convoy of cars sweeping into the drive. Pasha was back. There was the sound of doors slamming then Pasha’s loud voice, his clumsy, shambling footsteps and an unfamiliar but husky chattering that stopped abruptly.

“Oh my God, it’s her!” the voice said.

Katinka turned, and found herself face to face with a slim old man with a long, sensitive face and a battered blue worker’s cap. He was obviously in his eighties at least but there was a jerky energy about him, and he was still dapper in a crumpled brown suit that was too baggy for his slight figure. She liked him immediately.