sibling. It was not possible. He was reaching for a union the Humans had denied him. It seemed to him that what he needed was just beyond his grasp, just beyond that final crossing he could not make, as with his mother. As with everyone. He could know so much and no more, feel so much and no more, join so close and no closer.
Desperately, he took what he could get. She could not comfort him or even know how deeply he perceived her. But she could, simply by permitting the attachment, divert his attention from himself, from his own misery.
Aside from her original jerk of surprise, Tate did not try to detach him. He did not know what she did. All his senses were focused on the worlds within the cells of her body. He did not know how long he was frozen to her, not thinking, not knowing or caring what she did as long as she did not disturb him.
When he finally drew away from her, he found that she was sitting on a mat on the floor, leaning against a wall. She had gone on holding him on her arm and resting her arm on her knees. Now as he straightened and reoriented himself, she took his chin between her fingers and turned his face toward hers.
?Are you all right?? she asked.
?Yes.?
?What was it??
He said nothing for a moment, looked around the room.
?Everyone?s at breakfast,? she said. ?I?ve had my regularly scheduled lecture about how I spoil you and a little extra to boot. Now, why don?t you tell me exactly what happened.?
She put him down beside her and stared down at him, waiting. Clearly she did not know the girls were gone. Perhaps no one had noticed yet, thanks to the morning grazing habits of all three children. He could not tell. Amma and Shkaht should have as much of a start as possible.
?It?s too late for me to bond with my sibling,? he said truthfully. ?I was thinking about that last night. I was feeling
Lonely wouldn?t really be the right word. This was more like
something died.? Every word was true. His answer was simply incomplete. Amma and Shkaht had started his feelings?their union, their leaving
?Where are the girls?? Tate asked.
?I don?t know.?
?Have they gone, Akin??
He looked away. Why was she always so hard to hide things from? Why did he hesitate so to lie to her?
?Good god,? she said, and started to get up.
?Wait!? Akin said. ?They were going to cut them this morning. Neci and her friends were going to grab them while they were eating and hide them and cut off their sensory tentacles.?
?The hell they were!?
?They were! We heard them last night! Yori wouldn?t help them, but they were going to do it anyway. They were going to give them corn whiskey and??
?Moonshine??
?What??
?They were going to make the girls drunk??
?They couldn?t.?
Tate frowned. ?Were they going to give them the moonshine?the whiskey??
?Yes. But it wouldn?t make them drunk. I?ve seen drunk Humans. I don?t think anything we could drink would make us like that. Our bodies would reject the drink.?
?What would it have done to them??
?Make them vomit or urinate a lot. It isn?t strong or deadly. Probably they would just pass it through almost unchanged. They would urinate a lot.?
?That stuff?s damn strong.?
?I mean
I mean it?s not a deadly poison. Humans can drink it without dying. We can drink it without vomiting it up wrapped in part of our flesh to keep it from injuring us.?
?So it wouldn?t hurt them?just in case Neci caught them.?
?It wouldn?t hurt them. They wouldn?t like it, though. And Neci hasn?t caught them.?
?How do you know??
?I?ve heard her. She?s been asking people where the girls are. No one?s seen them. She?s getting worried.?
Tate stared at nothing, believing, absorbing. ?We wouldn?t have let her do it. All you had to do was tell me.?
?You would have stopped her this time,? he agreed. ?She would have kept trying. People believe her after a while. They do what she wants them to.?
She shook her head. ?Not this time. Too many of us were against her on this. Little girls, for godsake! Akin, we could waste days searching for them, but you could track them faster with your Oankali hearing and sight.?
?No.?
?Yes. Oh, yes! How far do you think those girls will get before something happens to them? They?re not much bigger than you are. They?ll die out there!?
