counter made o f stone, as i f a piece o f hard rock was hauled in
from the mountains. It’s solid stone from top to bottom.
There are no w ood cabinets or shelves, just solid stone. I f there
is running hot water you are in the house o f a millionaire. I f
you are ju st in a rich house, the people heat the water up in a
kettle or pot. In the same w ay, there m ay be a bathtub
somewhere but the woman has to heat up kettle after kettle to
fill it. She will wash clothes and sheets and towels by hand in
the bathtub with the water she has cooked the same w ay the
peasant woman will wash clothes against rocks. There is no
refrigerator ever anywhere and no General Electric but there
m ay be two bunsen burners instead o f one. Y ou get food every
day at open markets in the streets and that is the only time
women get to go out; only married women. The Am erikans
never go anywhere without refrigerators and frozen food and
packaged food; I don’t know how they can stay in Vietnam.
The Am erikan doctor said he was writing a novel about the
Vietnam War like Norman M ailer’s
He had a crew cut. He had a Deep South accent. He was blond
and very tanned. He had square shoulders and a square jaw .
Military, not civilian. White socks, slacks, a casual shirt. N ot
young. N ot a boy. O ver thirty. Beefy. He is married and has
three children but his wife and children are away he says. He
sought me out and tried to talk to me about the War and
politics and writing; he began by invoking Mailer. It would
have been different if he had said Hem ingway. He was a
Hem ingway kind o f guy. But Mailer was busy being hip and
against the Vietnam War and taking drugs so it didn’t make
much sense to me; I know Hem ingway had leftist politics in
the Spanish Civil War but, really, Mailer was being very loud
against Vietnam and I couldn’t see someone who was happily
military appreciating it much, no matter how good
least favorite o f his books. I said I missed Amerikan coffee so
he took me to his ranch-type house for some. I meant
percolated coffee but he made Nescafe. The Greeks make
Nescafe too but they just use tap water; he boiled the water.
He made me a martini. I have never had one. It sits on the
Formica. It’s pretty but it looks like oily ethyl alcohol to me. I
never sit down. I ask him about his novel but he doesn’t have
anything to say except that it is against the War. I ask to read it
but it isn’t in the house. He asks me all these questions about
how I feel and what I think. I’m perplexed and I’m trying to
figure it out, standing right there; he’s talking and my brain is
pulling in circles, questions; I’m asking m yself if he wants to
fuck or what and what’s wrong with this picture? Is it being in
a ranch-type house on an island o f peasants? Is it Formica on an
ancient island o f stone and sand? Is it the missing wife and