I looked up to see Terra standing in the doorway. Seeing her made me smile. It had been a long time since she’d come down to the office. I wondered if that was a good sign. Maybe she was going to meet me halfway on fixing our marriage after all.
But when I looked at her face, I could tell something was wrong. It was only then I realized Johanna’s tits were still within my eyes’ view. Fuck, this couldn’t look good.
“Oh, Mrs. Burrow.” Johanna straightened. “How are you?”
Terra’s eyes were sharp and menacing. It was good to see fire in them again, although I was certain she was going to give me that same lethal glare.
“Good, Johanna. And you?”
Johanna smiled and stepped away. I couldn’t be sure if she recognized how the situation looked or if she cared if she did.
“Good.” She turned to me. “I’ll just leave this for you. Let me know if you want to go in further.”
I winced as I felt like her words could have a hidden meaning.
“This is enough.” I said hoping Terra wasn’t thinking the worst. Then again, I’d never given her any reason to doubt me, so if she did, that would piss me off. She should know I’d never cheat on her.
But as Johanna left my office, closing the door behind her, Terra turned her attention to me, and I could see in her eyes, she didn’t know me at all.
12
Terra
Most times when I wondered if Brayden was fucking his secretary, I chastised myself for it. He and I were having marital problems, but that didn’t make him a cheater. And yet, with his face practically buried in his secretary’s cleavage and the smile on his face when he looked up, I realized that any man, even one I thought was good, decent, and loyal, could cheat.
When the door shut behind Johanna, he stood and came around his desk.
“What a surprise.” He was smiling again, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. Not like it had when Johanna’s tits were in his face.
“I can see that,” I quipped. I was second guessing having stopped by the office. Since I rarely saw him without the kids around, now seemed like a good time since the kids were in school and I had time before my next appointment. Now, I wanted to rip his dick off.
“Is everything okay? The kids alright?”
“The kids are fine.” I studied him as I tried to figure out the best way to ask him about Johanna. Did I just go with the presumptive statement; “How long have you been fucking your secretary?” Or should I see if he’ll lie and ask, “Are you fucking your secretary?”
He motioned for me to sit on the couch. My memory flashed to one of the many times he’d had me naked on it. In fact, I think we’d had each other on every surface and in every corner of this room. Now he was having Johanna.
Because I couldn’t bring myself to sit where he might have been screwing her, I remained standing.
“What’s up?” He gave me that expression that was supposed to be blank, but I could see irritation underneath. No doubt because if I hadn’t shown up, he’d be dick deep inside of Johanna by now.
“Are you?” I looked down to his groin to see if he was sporting an erection. He wasn’t, but that was probably because I ruined the moment.
“Am I what?”
I sighed. “Let’s talk straight, like we used to.”
His eyes flashed with annoyance. “Good. I’ve been waiting for you tell me what the hell is going on.”
I jerked back. “Me. I’m not the one with my face in another woman’s tits.”
“You’ve got to be kidding me? You think I’m having an affair.”
I wasn’t sure what I expected, but indignation wasn’t it. “Before today, I wondered. Now I know.”
“You know shit.”
His anger surprised me.
“I can’t decide which hurts more; your thinking I’d cheat or that you were seeking a divorce without telling me.”
I felt a tinge of guilt. He was right about the divorce. I should have talked to him instead of looking at my options. In fact, I shouldn’t have even called a lawyer…then again if he was cheating, maybe I should dig that lawyer letter out of the trash.
“I know what I saw. Looks like all those late nights paid off.”
“You know I get carried away in the work.”
“Yes, I do,” I said, glancing at his desk. “Have you had her in all the same places you had me?”
He stared at me like he didn’t know me. “Jesus, Terra. I’ve never touched another woman. I’ve never wanted to.”
“Come on Brayden. I’m not stupid. You’re not touching me. I can’t believe you’re really thinking of me when you jerk off.”
“I’d touch you if you slept in our bed,” he bellowed back. “And I do think of you when I jerk off as the memories of us are all that I seem to be able to have with you anymore.”
I wondered if Johanna and the others working in the office could hear us. Just what the company needed; the staff listening to the boss fighting with his wife about sex, or the lack there of.
“You don’t show any interest in me,” I said. And why should he. I didn’t look like I used to. I wasn’t very interested in me either.
“I gave up trying. I took your resorting to Noah’s bed as a message that you didn’t want me anymore. In fact, I’m thinking you want me to be having an affair so it would make leaving me easier.”
“What?”
“You’d probably be relieved if I was fucking Johanna.” He stalked over the little fridge he kept in the corner of his office and pulled out a bottle of water. He looked like he wished it was something stronger.
“You know, if you want her, you can have her. Chances are I’ll be gone
