“That’s rich, considering why you were here in the first place.”
“Look, I’m really sorry, but I love him-”
“Even after what he did to you?”
“Wait, when I was there, you were pushing me back at him. What’s changed?”
“Well, that was before he told you to throw me out of your life.”
“He didn’t-” I stopped myself, because there was no reason to try and explain myself. This had to happen if I had any chance of making things work with Alec. “This is my decision, Jamie. I want to make things work with him, and they can’t work if you’re always there to catch me.”
“Then I’ll drop you the next time you fall.”
I laughed slightly. “I know you would.”
“This sucks.”
“I know.”
“So, I’m never gonna hear from you again?”
Tears pricked my eyes because I really did like Jamie, but I knew this was for the best. “No.”
He sighed heavily. “I can’t say that I’m okay with this, but I get it. I hope you’re happy, Florrie. Just make him work for it. He has to earn it.”
“He will.”
“Good. Take care of yourself.”
“You too.”
I hung up and turned around to see Alec leaning against the doorframe. I couldn’t tell what he was thinking. He pushed off away from the frame and stalked toward me, gripping my face roughly in his hands before slamming his mouth down on mine. He tongue slid inside my mouth and my breath stuttered in my chest at the possessiveness of the kiss. I melted against him, something I never thought would happen again, but there it was, his love seeping its way back into my soul.
He pulled back, then kissed me lightly on the lips one last time. “Thank you. I swear to you, I’ll be worthy of you again one day.”
“I’ll be worthy of you one day, too.”
He swooped me up into his arms and carried me upstairs to our bedroom. There was so much still left unsaid between us, but this felt right. It felt like it was now or never with us. I had just taken a huge step forward for us, and I prayed that this wouldn’t be a mistake that would tear us apart. I was trusting him with my heart, and I hoped he knew that.
He laid me back on the bed, climbing up my body as he pressed kisses to me. His mouth fused with mine as he slowly peeled off my clothes. Alec never went slow, but he was taking his time now, cherishing every kiss and every moment that he was with me. I felt loved unlike I ever had with him before. The connection between us felt stronger than ever, despite all we had gone through.
He pulled down the cups of my bra, sucking my nipple into his mouth and sending zaps of electricity through me. I moaned and thrust my fingers into his hair, pulling him closer to me. His hands skimmed down my sides, pulling at my clothes until I was naked underneath him. I felt his warm breath skitter across my skin with every lick. I was a shaking mess under him, waiting for that moment that he finally took me again.
His mouth latched onto my pussy, licking and sucking at my clit and teasing me until I was writhing beneath him. I wanted him so badly. I needed him to give me all of him again. His body covered mine and I could feel his cock nudging at my entrance, begging to find its home. I spread my legs wider, but at the last second, just as Alec’s eyes connected with mine, doubt snuck in and had me shutting down.
Would I really be enough for him? He had run from me once, what happened the next time I freaked out? Would he find another woman to screw? I started shaking my head. I couldn’t do this. I couldn’t give him this last piece of me again. If he tore me apart again, I wouldn’t survive it. I barely survived this time.
He brushed his knuckles down my cheek, his eyes never leaving mine. “Trust me, Florrie. I’ll never hurt you like that again.” His lips closed over mine briefly and then trailed down my neck, caressing the sensitive skin of my throat. “I know it’s taking everything in you to trust me with your heart again. I swear, I won’t abuse that trust. I’ll take care of your heart with everything I have, because I know now what it feels like to lose that love.”
He stared down at me with so much love that I found myself slowly sliding open for him again. Part of me did trust him, and maybe the other part of me would always wonder what was going to happen between us, but I was willing to take that risk, because being with Alec through the good times and the bad was still better than being without him.
He slid inside me and my eyes closed in relief. He’s back, I thought as he slowly moved in and out of me. I gripped him tighter to me, holding him like I would lose him if I let go. He was home, exactly where he should be. All of the pain and the anger fled, leaving me feel free for the first time in so long. It wasn’t perfect, but then nothing in life ever was. But the journey through all of it with him made me appreciate what I had with him so much more. And when he pushed in one last time and I felt his cum dripping out of my body and down my legs, I knew that I would do anything to keep him in my arms for the rest of my life.
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVEAlec
“What is your obsession with knives?” I yelled at Derek as he flung yet another one at the guy rushing us. I pulled my own gun and fired two shots into the guy that appeared to the right.
“It’s my weapon
