I wasn't sure what to do, and since I had no one to talk to about this...
I stopped mid thought. I did have someone to talk to about this. I pulled my pajamas off and slipped into my t-shirt and jeans. I could hear the shower going in McKenzie's bathroom and walked over to it.
I gave a loud knock on the door and the water turned off.
"It's me. Can I come in?"
"Sure."
I slipped in and McKenzie's head was already sticking out from behind the shower door already. She looked solemn and concerned.
"So how did it go? How did he take it? Did you tell him?"
I nodded.
"Shit. Are you okay?" She asked, clicking for me to grab and pass her a towel.
I reached up for one and passed it, not able to hide the smile that had spread out across my face again.
"What?" McKenzie looked intrigued.
"Well, I did tell him, but it didn't go exactly as I imagined." I sat on the closed lid of the toilet and McKenzie climbed out the shower and wrapped the towel around herself. For a split second I caught a very tiny flash of ample bosom, just before I covered my eyes.
"How come you inherited all the boobs in the family?" I asked, still hands over eyes.
"Trust me, having big boobs isn't all fun and games. Most of the time the guys can't really see past it and ..."
Her voice tapered off and for a second she sounded sad. I looked up at her and her face had changed somewhat.
"Nevermind. This is about you. Tell me everything." She sat on the edge of the bath and crossed her hairless legs. Hairless legs, sometimes a foreign concept to me, especially when it was winter and I just didn't have the inclination.
"So...um..." I felt coy again and hung my head, wringing my hands in my lap. "We sort of kissed again, a few times."
"A goodbye kiss!" She quickly said.
I shook my head, "No, it was more of a..." How was I going to put this, I had never had a conversation like this with anyone before. Ever. "A hello kiss I guess you could say, in a way..."
McKenzie looked at me blankly for a moment or two and then suddenly her eyes widened and she gasped.
"OMG, like certain parts of his body were making an appearance and saying hello!"
"WHAT!" I screeched back. "I can't believe that just game out of your mouth. You did not just say that, Oh My God. I cannot believe that you just said that." I think I must have blushed a bright shade of crimson and the warm steamy bathroom was not helping my cause.
"Biology Maria." She smiled a kind of wicked smile at me and then slapped me on the knee. "See, isn't this nice. Girl talk."
"No!" I quickly corrected in jest. Because it was actually nice to have someone to talk to. "What am I going to do?" I asked, my voice quivering a bit at the mere thought of it.
"WOW! Okay, you're seriously considering it," She leaned in and whispered, "Having S E X with Mike." She spelt it out. Why, I don't know. The only people that could possibly overhear us were our parents and they could both spell.
"It's stupid I know. It's the worst idea in the world. He's going to another school soon, he got this scholarship. I'm going away next year, it would be the worst timing ever."
"Or the most perfect timing." McKenzie added softly. "A goodbye neither of you will ever forget."
I hung my head at the thought of it. "What if it's harder to say goodbye then?"
"What if it's easier, because you take something special and beautiful away with you both, something to remember and hold onto until you meet again in a year and get together."
"You think we will?" I perked up, but then quickly shook my head. "Nah, he'll find someone."
"He won't find anyone who will ever replace you. Trust me!"
She said it with such conviction that I almost believed her.
"What should I do?" I needed her advice, she was much more experienced in matters like this. "What's it like?"
I blushed again as the words left my lips.
"I wouldn't know," McKenzie said quickly. My shock was instant.
"You've never? But I thought...?"
"I was some kind of slag!" She stated matter-of-factly and shrugged.
"No...I mean... you always...shit, sorry. I don't mean to offend you." I reached out and touched her hand.
"No offence taken. Most people just think I am, and sometimes it's easier just to be what others think you are. Much less complicated that way. Not like you, you are always yourself, regardless of what people think."
I looked up at my twin, she was surprising me more and more every day, which each revelation. Like peeling the layers off an onion back and finding another one. I wondered how many more revelations there would be until I got down to the last layer.
"I can't give you advice about that stuff, what I can do is help you look a little better if you decide to... do the deed." She pulled up my jeans and made a tutting sound. "Just as I suspected. Your legs haven't seen a razor since your eye brows have seen a tweezer." She flashed me a smile.
I smiled back at her. It had felt good talking, but I was still conflicted and no closer to deciding what I wanted to do. This was life changing. One of those things you remember for the rest of your life. And it could go so wrong...
It might feel impossible to say goodbye to him afterwards.
Mike
I woke up the next morning and for a few wonderful, blissful seconds, my mind was blank. But then it wasn't anymore, and memories
