After a few seconds he realized I was no longer following him and he stopped, turning around to look back at me. “Come on, woman,” he hollered out. “I have a warm comfy bed that awaits you.”
I glared but again he ignored me and continued on. Truth was that did sound perfect. The idea of curling into his side, closing my eyes, and once again feeling safe and secure sounded like heaven. So I walked along, still wearing a scowl, but on the inside I was smiling and couldn’t wait to tuck myself beneath his oversized comforter and gain some much needed sleep.
Chapter Thirty-One
Jay
“Shh!” I glared at Xavier and then looked down at the passed out girl at my side. He’d come barging into my room with Morgan and Palmer tailing close behind. They’d been oblivious to my guest, but when I arrived home the house was pretty empty.
“Damn, sorry.” He motioned behind him, telling the girls to lower their voices as they all moved further into the room. “It’s not even nine o’clock.”
Around here a normal bedtime was well into the morning hours.
“She’s wiped,” I said in explanation. It pissed me off how she’d let herself get drug down so far trying to please a man that couldn’t ever be satisfied. Her father was a prick, a control freak who daily made his daughter feel as though she wasn’t good enough. Her insecurities were because of him, the need to be perfect, the stress I’d seen her drowned in since I’ve known her.
“We’re ordering pizza,” Morgan said in a shushed tone. “Do you guys wanna join us?”
I was hungry.
Before I could answer, I felt Ruby stir just before her body tensed against mine.
“Hi.” Blake waved awkwardly and I rolled my eyes. She was such a fucking dork but I loved her like a sister.
“An audience.” I heard Ruby’s soft, unsure whisper. “Hey,” she added a little louder so the group hovering around us could hear.
“You hungry?” Morgan asked with a smile and I knew it was to make Ruby feel a little less awkward.
“Um…’” She tried to scoot away but I held her tighter against my body.
“They just came in to ask if we wanted pizza.” I wasn’t about to let her get up and move away from me. I didn’t let her refuse or agree, I told them we’d be down in a few and they slunk back toward he exit, closing the door behind them.
“I should go home.” She tugged against me and I gripped her tight. Instead, I rolled over and covered her body with my own. “Jay.” With her palms pushing my chest, I smiled down at her and saw her resolve crack. “You’re heavy.”
“And you’re beautiful.” Something flickered in her expression, skepticism maybe. “You are.” She attempted to ignore my words as she looked away but I kept going. “And you’re smart.” She closed her eyes and kept her head to the side. Cupping her jaw, I forced her to look at me. “Sexy.” Her eyes locked with my own. I’d managed to hold back most thoughts I’d had when we were together, unsure of what was acceptable and what wasn’t. The last thing I wanted was to scare her.
But I was done censoring my thoughts and my words.
“You have no idea what you do to me.” So many things I’d never felt before. “I’ve never been content with just holding someone all night. I’ve never spent hours kissing someone and being completely satisfied with what it offers. I think about you all the time.”
I felt her relax slowly beneath me.
“I want you here.” I don’t think she had ever really been made to feel like she was truly wanted. “When you’re not, I feel like something is missing. Because you, Ruby, make me feel whole.”
Tears pooled in her eyes and I knew that I’d managed to penetrate the fucking walls her father had caused her to build in her head.
“So stay. We can go downstairs and eat pizza. Or we can go get some and bring it back up here. It doesn’t matter as long as you’re here. Truth is, I’d keep you here every damn minute of every day if you’d let me.” I felt the overwhelming urge to protect her racing through me. I knew her father was not doing the job and that pissed me off to no end. She deserved more, she deserved better.
“Okay.” Ruby smiled up at me, and unable to hold back any longer, I leaned in and pressed my lips to hers. Our kiss started out slow until I felt her tongue trace my lower lip and I gave in quickly, needing more.
I knew without a doubt that she was inexperienced but her eagerness was a killer. The way she rubbed up on me, the way her hands roamed as if she were trying to test herself, it was all sometimes too much. Ruby had no fucking idea what she was doing to me, and the desire she was creating inside of me was beginning to overflow.
One of her legs was tossed over my hip and I felt her lift herself, grinding against me. The heat of her arousal, the way her kiss had changed and she was now sucking on my tongue, fuck, I was dying a slow death from all the blood rushing to one central location.
“Baby,” I whispered, ignoring how she continued to pump her hips as if she were only seconds away from getting herself off. “We should…” Hurrying to cover my lips with hers, my words were lost. Her fingernails dig into my shoulders and her breathing
