“Oh…” I moaned, finally relaxing enough to feel my body “give” to him, and just like that his head was inside me.
I drew in a breath through my teeth as I felt the tiniest bit of pain at letting him in, and he paused.
“Is this okay? Do you want me to stop?”
“N-no. Don’t stop,” I urged him. I couldn’t have him stop; then the buoy that was floating down there in my mind would come bobbling to the surface. I needed to keep having sex.
But still, he didn’t seem convinced. He wasn’t budging.
I turned one of my eyes to him, and looked up at him with all the power I could muster and said: “I said, don’t stop!”
He chuckled, then pressed his monster cock further into me.
I buckled a little and moaned, feeling him stretch me so pleasurably.
“You’re a bossy little bottom, aren’t you?”
I smiled through my moaning. Bossy Bottom. I liked the sound of that.
I moaned again as Adam pressed his length further and further into me with an impossible, delicious slowness.
Underneath me, he was still using his lubed up hand to jerk me off, but with just as slow of a cadence as he was pushing into me.
“You’re so tight,” he moaned. “So, so tight…”
All I could do was moan in response and mentally beg him to go faster. It felt like my body was dying; aching for an orgasm.
As if he read my mind, he pulled his dick out just a little faster than he’d put it in.
I felt my body clench up, closing the cavern it had to make when he’d pushed into me.
But just as he was about to pull out, he pushed in again, faster this time.
“Oh my God, oh don’t stop…” I moaned, biting the towel.
He started thrusting faster and faster, pressing all of him into me as he jerked me off.
It felt so incredible, so unbelievably amazing, that before he’d even picked up any significant speed, everything inside of me melted and ecstasy was coursing through my body.
“I’m coming! I’m coming!” I said in a hushed voice as I spurted my jizz all over the towel underneath me.
“Yes…” Adam moaned, followed by a primal growl.
He was still pounding me, going faster and faster as my body sagged like a rag doll with pleasure. Because of my orgasm, my ass became more relaxed and was more permissive with letting him in.
I could hear the squelching of the lube as he drove himself into me faster and faster. Then he released a growl of pleasure and I could feel his dick pour all of his come into the condom inside me.
Even with the condom, it felt so good to feel his dick pulse within me, emptying his sperm into my hole.
With a huge, satisfied sigh, he sagged over me and unsheathed his cock.
It only took a few seconds for him to throw the condom in a garbage bag, tuck his dick back into his pants, and lay down next to me on the towel.
We cuddled there for a while, and I was in absolute heaven. All of my senses had been flooded with pleasure, and I felt closer to him than I had to anyone before.
“How did you like that?” he asked in his gentle voice.
“I… I’m speechless,” I answered. “You’re incredible.”
He chuckled a little. “It wasn’t me who was incredible. You’re… you’re really something, you know that?”
I felt a warm, fuzzy feeling unfurl in my gut as I nuzzled into his neck.
But that buoy of fear deep within me was quickly rising to the surface; I couldn’t keep it down. How long until he left me, I wondered? How long until he got bored with me? Could I really trust him? Maybe he was thinking of leaving me out here on this beach right now…
His hand squeezed mine, and the doubtful thoughts scattered as if I’d just turned on a light in a basement full of cockroaches.
He looked at me right in the eyes. I couldn’t make out their green color in the darkness; I could only see a glimmer from the moon.
But the shape of his eyes communicated pure bliss. There were little crows feet on the edges from his smile.
“I could lay here forever,” he said, cuddling me.
“F-forever?” I asked, my voice coming out shaky.
Oh no. Oh no oh no, what if he did want to actually be with me forever, and that was it? What if he was lying to me? No one wanted to be with anyone person forever, right? He was using me. I had used him. I couldn’t trust him… it was all wrong…
It was a small trigger. It was a stupid trigger. I knew these thoughts were irrational, but that didn’t stop my brain from sending my body into high-alert.
My pulse quickened. My breathing became heavy and laborious. There was a buzzing in my ears as that buoy of worry finally burst through the surface, drowning out the cries from Adam as he held me.
White fireworks flickered in my vision, and then everything faded to black.
10
Adam
“Luke, Luke!!” I cried trying to shake him out of it.
His beautiful blue eyes were filled with panic. It was like he wasn’t here in my arms; he was somewhere else. Somewhere terrifying.
I knew that I had my first aid kit out in the car, but I didn’t know what it would do for him. There was nothing visibly wrong with him, besides all of the symptoms of a panic attack. So I held him as he shook and breathed sharply.
“You’re safe, Luke, you can trust me,” I said in my most calm, even voice. “You’re safe, you’re safe, you’re safe…” I repeated into his ear. But something in me knew that he couldn’t hear me; he was somewhere far away.
His body went limp as he passed out
