Never making love to a woman had been as intense as it was with Aideen. We remained silent as we listened to our breathless breaths. While we were recovering. I smiled when I realized she had her eyes closed and I kissed her cheek slowly. I was about to kiss her again and start all over again, when a voice made me raise my head.
- What a beautiful actor you are! - said Rose clapping her hands. - How about you? Are you a big idiot?
I took the towel to cover Aideen.
- You again! - said Aideen wrapping herself in the towel and standing up. - Don't you get tired of humiliating and crawling?
- Me? Crawling? By humiliating me? - Rose returned it ironically. - You are the one who is nothing but a delusion, believing in the words of a man who only wants to use it. Is this how you lost your virginity? Deluded by a man?
I felt in my skin the slap pain that Aideen hit Rose's face and smiled with satisfaction.
- I've already warned you not to speak to me. - Aideen said between her teeth. - My life is none of your business.
Instead of getting angry or trying to fight back, Rose raises her face and laughs.
- What did he tell you to get what you wanted? - she continued to provoke her. - Let me see if those were the words: "I miss your body, your smell, your skin, your mouth. I miss you. ”
Aideen looked horrified at Rose.
- Were you spying on us? But you're very low indeed!
- I don't need to spy on you to know what Alistair said. - she smiled at me. - Isn't that right?
Aideen looked at me. She didn't need much to know that I had actually used that argument with Rose. The problem is, this time, I was being real with Aideen. I really missed her, but it seems that everything I did to fix the donkey I did only made things worse.
- I don't believe it! - she screamed angrily.
- Aideen... I... - I tried to argue, but the words didn't come out.
- You're a bastard! - she said harshly and turning her back. - He said he hates being fooled! Hypocrite! How could I have been so foolish as to believe your words when you said you missed me?
She'd put the dress on quickly. Your voice coming out clearly hurt. Rose took advantage of the confusion to leave us alone.
- Aideen, I know I made a mistake when I said that, but how true you were!
- Is that so? - she said ironic. - Yeah, I don't believe you. You know I didn't even want to come to Dunhill? Maybe if I had torn my throat that day in the forest, I wouldn't be going through all this.
- Don't say that! - I said panic. - I know I haven't done the right thing with you, but you should remember it's your fault.
- Mine? - she let out a laugh. - You're a fucking liar. I'm nothing but a hopeful delusion.
Aideen didn't give me a chance to argue, so she left the bathroom. I ran after her who cried copiously.
- Aideen, come back here! - I screamed.
She kept running, but I reached her and made her stop.
- Let go of me! - she screamed. - I'm tired of being someone's object. It ends here and now. I'd rather die alone in the woods than be fooled again.
Before I could even say anything, Aideen held my shoulders and kneeled me so hard that I fell groaning on the floor. I stood there moaning, unable to get up. I saw it when she entered the stable and then left mounted on Chimera. Despair took hold of me, for she had no sense of direction. I didn't know the forest, let alone the dangerous paths that led to cliffs on the hillside. You didn't have a gun on you and no saddlebags with food or water. She would die of thirst, hunger, cold or worse, attacked by the wolves that inhabit some trails.
- Aideen! Damn it! - I grumbled by standing up.
- Are you all right? Elaine asked when she reached me and helped me up. - What's going on? Where's Aideen going like that?
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