There's no doubting it. Ava's clearly feeling the effects of her drinks.
Her hands run up and down my arms, and I just hold her, rubbing her back, not letting myself cup her ass even though I want to. This is a very fine line here, an extremely fine line, and I’m not sure we should cross it, so I’ll rather err on the side of caution.
If there is any caution to be had.
“Rix,” she says, and she giggles.
I do love that sound—both of her happy giggles and of her saying my name.
She runs her hands through my hair. “I think… You’re an alien explorer, right?”
“Sure.” I smile down at her, loving how lit up her eyes are.
“I think… I think I’m enchanted by you. I’m enchanted by the alien explorer. Isn’t that hilarious?” She bursts out laughing.
“Ava, I think you need—”
“Alien explorer, hush! I’m not done talking yet.” She touches my nose and then moves her finger to my lips to shh me. “Alien explorer, do you want to explore me?”
Ava steps back and lifts her hair up behind her head as she pushes out her chest.
Okay, yeah, this isn’t the Ava that I want to know.
I shake my head. “Ava, I think you should get some rest.”
“Get some rest? What the hell. Why would you say that? Unless you mean you want to sleep with me. Is that it? That’s it, right? Maybe… I don’t really have a bed. It’s just some blankets that I lie on. Do you want us to go back to the ship? Yes! Yes! Let’s finish the tour! How does that sound? I mean, that’s what we should do, right? My first time shouldn’t be on blankets. It should be done right and proper in a bed. In your bed. Can we go to your bed? We can rest there.” She winks at me, or at least I think she tries to, but she just deliberately blinks at me.
Honestly, it's strange. It's like the alcohol almost had a delayed effect on Ava because when we were walking, she slurred her words some and walked a bit zigzagged, but she hadn't been this over the top.
“No, Ava,” I say as smoothly as possible. “I think you need to sleep as in sleep. Not sleep as in sleep with me.”
“Why the fuck not?” she demands. “You left that bar full of women who all wanted to rip your pants off with me. Why can’t I be the one to rip them off? I won’t even rip them. I like how those pants fit you. And besides! You can’t lie to me, Alien Explorer. You want me.”
She reaches toward my cock that is pressed against my pants and begging to be freed, but I grab her wrist as gently as I can.
“You’re nothing but a fucker, you know that? Leading a girl on. Getting her to open up to you, to care for you, to maybe, I don’t know, feel things. It’s wrong for you to do that, to get her hopes up, to send… Yes. You’re sending mixed signals. Why don’t you want me?”
“Ava, I do. You can see that I do.”
She tries to reach for my cock again, but I tighten my grip just enough to stop her. “I don’t know. I can’t see very well. I do better by touch.”
“Do you now?” I can’t help snickering at that. “Ava, please. I don’t want your first time—Ovian. You’re a virgin?”
“What’s the matter, Alien Explorer? You don’t want to be with a virgin? I thought guys would want to be with virgins instead of those girls who fuck a hundred guys a night. My pussy’s tight. Want to feel it? You know you do.”
Fuck me. I do want to feel it, and my balls are starting to get really painful. I’m going to need to flamindulis and soon, or else I’m going to risk losing one of my balls or even both of them. I would love to have kids one day, so that means that I can’t risk that, but I also don’t want to lose Ava. If I touch her now, I’ll have her for one night. If I don’t touch her, I might be able to have her forever.
Or I might lose her forever and not even have that one night.
No. No, I'll be here for Ava even if she doesn't think I am.
“You’re just like that rat bastard Paul!” she screams. “You just want what you can get out of me. You never really had any feelings for me, did you? That crying, that speech, it was all just bullshit. You don’t love me. You don’t care for me.”
She yanks herself free and stomps away, swaying this way and that. I rush up to her and try to help guide her, but she staggers away.
“Don’t you touch me,” she snaps. “You lost out. You need to go. Leave. Leave me be. Leave me alone, you fucker!”
“I just want to make sure you get back to your way in one piece,” I tell her.
“Peace. What do you know about peace? All you do is get under people’s skin like a… like an infection or a disease. You made me diseased, Rix. You sickened me. Made me sick.”
“With what illness?” I ask, unable to tease her a little.
“I don’t know.”
“Are you lovesick?”
She glowers at me. “You think you’re so smart. You’re trying to trick me. No. No, I’m not lovesick. I don’t love you. I hate you. Do you hear me? I hate you! You made me feel hope. Hope! I haven’t felt hope in… in… Actually, I felt it when I learned my levitation device worked, but then the government fuckers and the military fuckers didn’t fucking want my device. They tossed me aside. Your overlord wants it, but he told you to close the deal, didn’t he? I bet he put you up to this, and that’s why you don’t want me.”
“I want
