I cock my head. “What does?”
Prinie turns to face me a little more, grabbing both my hands in hers. “Your need to choke, your sexual desires, they are reliving a time in your life that was liberating for you.”
I grimace hearing her say it out loud. “I’m not following.”
“Your mother told you every woman in your life was going to stand over your body and watch you get fucked time and time again. Because you’re worthless and deserve nothing but the pain you’d caused by being alive. You clung to that. It’s ingrained into your psyche. Subconsciously, deep inside, that scared little boy thinks every woman is like your mother. They are going to stand back and let people hurt you because you’re worthless. Because you bring nothing but pain to those around you. Well, I’m telling you now, Talon, I’m never going to stand by and let anyone hurt you. I’d throw myself in front of a firing gun before I’d let another human being hurt you like that again.”
A wave of cold washes over me, finding it difficult to breathe. My ears start to ring as my eyes fill with unshed tears. No one has ever stepped up to defend me like Prinie has. No one has ever cared about me enough, or believed in me, even to contemplate saying something like that.
Letting out a long breath to control my emotions, I shake my head. “I’m so… fucking sorry.”
Her entire body slumps, tears falling down her face. She launches over the top of me, kneeling either side of my thighs. Her hands come out gripping my cheeks as she stares into my eyes. “Stop! I know you are. It wasn’t you. Certainly, not this man I’m seeing right now. And even if that part of you is stuck with us for the rest of our lives, that’s fine, too. We’ll deal with it, together. Okay?”
My hands slide out gripping onto her hips. “You’re too fucking good for me.”
Prinie leans in pressing her forehead to mine. “We’re both broken, Wraith. We have damaged pasts. My parents had their throats slit right in front of me. You had to do something to get a better life for yourself. We’re products of our past, but together, we can make a brighter future, but only if we both work at it.”
“I need to be inside of you again,” I groan, my lips taking her nipple in between my teeth.
She bites down on her bottom lip, lifting her hips, to let my freshly formed erection slide into place. “You can be inside of me whenever you feel the need.” She presses down, and I force out a throaty moan as I run my hand up to cup her firm breast.
“Well, then, we’re gonna be in this room for a long damn time.”
Standing over the bed looking down at her, she’s so peaceful. The sheets pulled up as she sleeps so blissfully. She looks calm, somehow her skin is more beautiful than I remember.
As I lean down, my fingers gently caress her pale cheek, and I pull back a strand of hair drawing it over her ear. The loose tendril falls into the crook of her neck, my attention instantly going there.
My heart rate picks up as I stare at her neck. She’s lying there so peacefully. I’m like a junkie needing a fix as adrenaline courses through my veins while I stare at her pulse throbbing on her jugular. I want to feel it against my palm.
Inching closer, I smell the tobacco from her last cigarette. It makes my nose curl in aggravation. My hands reach out, my fingers itching to touch her sallow skin. To feel the smooth texture before I drain the life from her. She’s on her side, so I need to move fast. My blood pumps so rapidly as excitement bubbles in me.
If I’m going to do this, I need to do it now.
I reach out shoving her, pushing her onto her back. Her eyes fling open as I straddle her body. My hands don’t hesitate as they lock in around her neck. Her eyes widen in fear as I clench down so fucking tight my fingers go red, then instantly white.
She gasps, desperate for air, her fingers clawing as her body bucks like a bronco only spurring me on.
“Talon, son, please stop!” Mom garbles out, but it’s barely even a whisper as I cling harder.
My body’s flaming hot with adrenaline.
Shutting my eyes, my head flings back reveling in my bloodlust. Killing my mother is so fucking gratifying. She shudders, her body writhing, but fighting me only excites me more until her body begins to weaken. I open my eyes, but beneath me is Prinie, her eyes wide, bloodshot, and almost bursting out of her face. Her lips blue as her lifeless hands drop to her sides.
I let out the breath I was holding as my fingers unclench from her throat.
I sit back, narrowing my eyes on her.
Scrunching up my face, taking in Prinie’s wrecked face.
I’m so fucking confused.
It was my mom.
I know it was my mom, and yet before me is Prinie?
Fear cripples me as I jump from the bed seeing Prinie’s lifeless body.
My stomach rolls, shaking uncontrollably as my eyes well with tears. “Fuck. Prinie!”
My world starts spinning as I fall to the floor, but it’s like I’m rocking, my whole world is moving from side to side.
It’s like I’m in another fucking universe.
I have to be.
“Oh God, what have I done?”
“Wraith, wake up!” Prinie shoves me so hard, I almost fall out of the bed. My body
