All I can think about is that yesterday morning Logan was kissing me, claiming I was his, and now less than forty-eight hours later he is sat having a romantic meal with another girl. She must her. The one he told me about. The girl his dad wants him to marry. Well she is welcome to him. She can have him and hopefully in time, these tingles in my body will stop. I can feel it now. The pull in my body. It’s like I’m a magnet and he is a piece of metal and I’m being pulled to him. It’s exhausting to constantly fight with my own body. I need a break from it and from all the noise around me and excuse myself to go to the bathroom.
When I exit the bathroom I know he is there. I can tell by the way my body feels that he is closer. My only other way out is back the way I came and there’s no exit that way. I’m going to have to go past him. I hold my head up high and turn the corner knowing exactly who’s waiting for me. I attempt to just walk straight past him but he steps in front of me blocking my path. I stop walking and he takes a step closer to me and gently takes a handful of my hair and runs his fingers through it. He takes another small step and closes the distance between us and puts his hand at the nape of my neck and inhales deeply.
“Alexia” He says softly. I take a step back and break the contact between us.
“Please move out of my way Logan. Go back to your date.” I say trying to sound as strong as I can. He moves his arms to reach out to me again but I really can’t have that. I know that my body will betray me, so I take a bigger step back.
“That’s not what that is. You don’t understand. Why did you turn up with him? I could have coped if...” He rambles on.
Really? Is he serious right now?
That could have been the best thing for him to say because it makes me angry. He can sit on a date with someone his dad wants him to marry but I cant walk into a restaurant to sit with a group of friends with Chris? I can’t believe the nerve of him.
“Who I turn up with is none of your business actually; and no I don’t understand. And you know what? I don’t want to understand. Nothing that you do and say makes any sense to me. So you do what you want and I’ll do what I want. With whom I want. Okay?” I stand up taller and attempt to push past him again, but again he stops me easily and this time he does touch me. He firmly but gently takes a hold of my arms.
“No. Not okay with me. Not at all. You just have to trust me. I’m trying here...” I can tell he is being sincere, but after what happened, I wont be with someone who is ashamed of me but will then go out on a date with someone else the next day, and seem to think it’s fine to do so.
I don’t understand why but I know that this boy has the ability to completely shatter my heart and I know I wont survive it. I need to get out now before I get myself in any deeper; and he has given me the perfect opportunity by acting the way he has. I talk over him so he can’t even finish what he was saying.
“Trying? Trying at what? I don’t trust you Logan. How can I? I don’t even know you. You say one thing then do something that contradicts it. You get angry because I walked in with a friend, yet you’re here with your... your... your fiancé. Just go back to her Logan and leave me alone. You were wrong. I’m not yours. I never was. I never will be.” I’m fighting back tears and trying to hold my self together while trying to get out of his grip that has now got suddenly tighter.
“No, she’s not her. It’s not what you think. It’s you. You just don’t understand. Just give me time. You are mine, and I’m yours. Please Alexia just...” I’m not even listening to him anymore. It hurts my heart just to even hear his voice.
“Alex. Are you ok? Chris was worried. He asked me to check on you.” Amber speaks in a firm voice but I can see that she is concerned and probably for someone looking on, our stance and tone with each other doesn’t look very good.
“She’s fine Amber. We are just talking then I’m going to take her home. Right Alexia?” Logan isn’t even looking at her as he speaks. He is just looking straight at me. Into my soul.
“I wasn’t talking to you Logan, I was asking Alex. So Alex...” I shake my head from side to side slowly, and finally manage to peel his fingers from my arms and take yet another step away from him.
“No. You’re not. I’m came here with friends and a friend is taking me home. Stay away from me Logan. Please.” I hope the words sound more convincing than they feel inside.
“Alexia?” He pleads.
“She said to leave her alone.” Amber says and comes to stand by me.
“No. Wait. Alexia, please..." He asks quietly, reaching out for me again.
“You need to leave me alone Logan.” Amber takes my hand and
