“Because I don’t?” I smiled and kissed her head softly letting my lips linger against it for a short moment. Her hands made their way to my cheeks and she smiled as she planted a kiss against my lips.
“I don’t mind that at all.” Her voice was still quiet and I found myself cradling her. She looked tired as she placed herself next to me on the bed. I watched her turn on the television, she looked disinterested in whatever shitty Christmas movie was playing on the tele and I reached for my phone. She was now scrolling through her social media’s, and sighing. I smirked. She was pouting slightly without knowing. I started taking pictures of her and grinned to myself. Surely to god nobody would realise it was her if I were to post something on my story? I pressed the record button on my phone and zoomed in on her face, her mouth all plump from her pout and as I zoomed out I chuckled, her head turned towards me and she smiled before dropping her phone and holding her hands out to cover the camera. “Haz!” She called and I laughed before I stopped filming and she frowned. “Oh god don’t put that anywhere I look terrible.” She moaned as she took my iphone in her hand and watched the video. It was sweet, her tanned skin looked even more tanned in her long sleeved cream t-shirt. I snatched my phone from her hands and she rolled her eyes. “How come you’re allowed to post videos of me but I can’t do the same to you?” I watched her eyebrows raise and smirked at her. She picked her phone up again and continued to look through it. I shrugged and started to add text to the short video clip.
“Because,” I started to defend myself but in my laps of madness I’d ignored the fact that Rava would probably see this video and know she was with me. “I can.” I smirked as I wrote out.
#Imustbereallyboring across the video and published it to my instagram story. I wanted nothing more than to tag her but I couldn’t bring myself to go that far. I pulled against her shoulder softly and made her lay next to me. I loved just being next to her. I’d never tire of this.
I could hear her whispering in my ear softly and nudging me gently. I ran my nose over hers and smiled before I opened my eyes. I must have fallen asleep.
“You fell asleep?” She was smiling. Her fingers running tiny circles around my chest.
“I did?” She continued to trace figures with her fingers against my chest. “I love you Avaya.” Her face was riddled with shock as I cuddled her tighter. She stood from where I was laying and leant over me to place a kiss against my lips.
“I love you too. I have to go and wrap your gifts though?” I nodded slowly and released her from my grip. There was a knock on the door and as she opened it I spotted Jay. He was smiling down at Avay. She smiled up at him and he gave her a strange look. I watched as she awkwardly squeezed past him and followed her out with my eyes.
“What’s going on?” I ran my fingers through the front of my hair, I barely recognised my own husky voice and sat up slightly.
“I’m sorry to spoil your night in but we’ve got a drop to do.” The harsh reality of what we do made yet another appearance. I didn’t want to do it anymore. I wanted a normal life. I shook my head and placed my jaw together tightly.
“Jay,” I began. His big mud brown eyes saddened. “The day I’ve had I really don’t want to go and do that drop. Not for him of all people.” I admitted. It was the truth. I’d had nightmare after nightmare. His expression twisted from sadness to something else as he raised his eyebrow at me.
“Oh shit yeah Holly’s date it’s nearly here isn’t it?” I nodded and grimaced all at the same time. He placed his large hand on my shoulder and rubbed it softly. “You know I’m here this time. That’s not going to happen. Not with her?” I shrugged. How can he be so sure?
“I’ll come but know I’m not happy about it.” He nodded and offered me half a smile. I’ve never feared losing someone as much as I feared losing her. I shoved my coat over my shoulders and made my way from the house, hoping that she didn’t notice I was gone and praying that she may fall asleep before I got home.
Holt
It had been a strange night. I wrapped his last gift, I placed them under the tree and looked at Buddy who was cuddling Chlo. I smiled at them and threw myself between them both. They both started to laugh and I couldn't help but join them. Chlo nudged me off her slightly before she flicked my forehead softly.
“Ouch!” Her face was a picture and I laughed. Buddy was smiling at us both as he moved over.
“I’m sorry!” She chuckled as she handed me a glass of wine. My life was beginning to become unrecognisable. I didn't know why I had a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach but I did. Something was going to happen soon and it would more than likely have something to do with Rava.
“Do you know that Juve is coming down with mum and dad tomorrow?” I shook my head and huffed.
“Are you kidding?” He laughed and shook his head.
“Unfortunately not.” I smiled at his little chubby face, that was actual
