“Av I told Jay.” My chest thudded as he said the words left his mouth and I looked down at him laying underneath me. “I told him I’d slept with you. I couldn’t breathe after I’d dropped you home.” He shook his head and I sat up, pulling myself away from him.
“What does that mean?” I stared at the bed sheets beneath us and he rose to sit up too. “Does that mean we’re done?” He clutched my hands in his and ran his thumbs over them.
“He knows it didn’t happen just once and I’m pretty sure he knows I can’t stop myself with you. Honestly he warned me so many times.” My eyes lowered, I was now more confused.
“But you said nobody could know?” I watched the colour flood his cheeks and tilted my head.
“I was very upset when you left and didn’t look back last week. I’ve never slept with anybody sober and I’ve definatly never had sex like that in my life.” His eyes shone differently now and I blushed. I heard him clear his throat and my stomach filled with butterflies.
“Do you want sex like that again?” I questioned boldly. He shifted in the bed and I glanced at his face. His eyes darkened and he gave me that look. My groin pulsed and my eyes wandered over his physic.
“I,” he began to talk and I placed myself on his lap. I could feel his erection growing beneath me and I watched as he moved his fluffy bed hair from his face.
“Do you want to have that sort of sex again?” I asked him the same question again only this time I ran my lips down his neck.
“It wasn’t just sex for me Avay.” His voice was full of vulnerability and I froze. I heard him clear his throat and placed my head on his shoulder. I ran my hand to his neck and pulled his lips towards mine.
“It wasn’t for me either.” My words were quiet and I felt his lips against mine. There was a difference in this kiss. It was slow and savouring and hot. My heart pounded in my chest and I could feel myself melting into him. I was losing myself to him and the scary thing was I didn’t mind. Not one bit.
I left the spare room and made my way to the bathroom down the hallway, there seemed to be a buzz around the place and there were people gathered outside of doorways and congregating in the hallway. I continued to brush past people and felt a pressure in front of me. I frowned and glanced up. He looked familiar, too familiar and he ran his hands down my arms. I tilted my head to one side.
“I’m so sorry, I nearly knocked you flying.” His eyes were warm and soft and his smile hit his eyes. I smiled too.
“Don’t worry I have a habit of getting in the way.” His mousey hair was tousled all over the place and he had chubby cheeks. He looked younger and I felt him release me.
“You look very familiar.” I leant against the wall and watched his eyes examine my face and frame.
“I can’t say I’ve seen you before now, I’d remember seeing you.” He winked and I laughed a little before I rolled my eyes. “Who are you?” My eyes examined his face, I knew him and I didn’t know how. His blue eyes were too familiar.
“Avaya.” I muttered towards him.
“I’m Buddy, it’s nice to meet you.” He reached for my hand and kissed my knuckles. I scoffed a laugh and rolled my eyes before the slam of a door made me look that way.
“Put her down Buddy,” I watched him smirk and I shook my head. It was like looking at Haz. I tilted my head at Jay and watched him smile “she’s not yours to touch.” I watched Buddy release my hand and heard him clear his throat.
“She’s down.” I smiled softly at him and looked back towards Jay. He stood leant against his door watching us, he looked sleepy, his black t-shirt hung off his shoulders and I walked past him on the way to the bathroom. I felt him reach out for my hand and he pulled me towards him.
“That’s one of Harry’s brothers.” He whispered in my ear and I nodded. I’d guessed. I pushed my hands against his chest and smiled as I tilted my head towards the bathroom.
“I guessed and I’m really trying to have a wee?” I whispered back and felt him release me. I breathed a sigh of relief. I glanced back at them both watching me and raised my shoulders at them. Jay grinned and winked at me.
“Fucking hell is she your girl?” I heard Buddy’s voice as I turned back towards the door.
“Not mine no.” Jay's voice was full of humour and I chuckled before I tried the door handle.
“She single? She’s fucking breath-taking.” I heard Jay chuckle and turned back towards them, Jay was staring at me with a strange look across his face. “Jesus those eyes.” I rolled them as he said it and entered the bathroom. I placed my ear against the door to hear what they were saying.
“She is but it’s complicated,” Jay started to explain and I heard Buddy laugh.
“Fuck do you like her?” His tone was teasing and I found myself laughing at him. He was funny.
“Like who?” Haz’s voice was crystal clear. I could just imagine him in a loose t-shirt and bit my lip.
“Avaya.” Jay interjects. There was an awkward silence between them and I placed my hand on the door.
“He probably does, but don’t even go there.” His voice commanded his brother and I smirked.
“Hey if she’s single, she’s fair game not my problem if you two are too scared to charm her.” I heard Jay and Haz laugh and it was almost melodic. I joined in with them as I sat on the toilet to release my held in wee.
