“Yay!” Jenny squealed. “Hunter has been asking me to set you two up for forever!” she said excitedly. Jenny quickly texted Hunter to set up my blind date before I had the chance to change my mind. Which was smart on her part because I was already regretting it. Fittingly, she set it up for the day after Axel returned, not that she knew that. Axel and I had made plans for me to sleep over at his place on the day he returned but there was no way in hell that was happening now.
I WAS SURPRISED TO RECEIVE a text from Axel the moment his plane landed. I’d been checking the internet to make sure his flight got in okay. I wondered if he texted all his fuck buddies the same message. He texted he’d landed and then that he was coming to pick me up. I was about to message him not to bother but a selfish part of me couldn’t bring myself to do it. I was so horny, having not had him for three weeks straight. We often had sex three times in one day, so it was a pretty big deal. My body needed him; he was like a drug.
I told myself it was okay to indulge once more. I hadn’t thought the last time would be the last time. I needed this last time to bask in it and enjoy every blissful second and get some real closure from the finality of it all. I put on the sexiest lingerie I had, wanting him to remember me and how amazing we were together. I wanted him to have as much trouble letting go as I was. I even put on a little bit of makeup, something I didn’t usually bother with, and a dab of perfume. I wore a cute sweater and leggings to cover up the secrets beneath.
I was ready to have my last night with this man, I told myself. I was going to make him wish he never met me. Axel knocked on my door and I let him in, my breath catching at the sight of his rugged beauty. His dirty blond hair had grown and fell onto his forehead a bit, just the way I liked it and now, his clean-shaven face was gone and he had grown a well-maintained beard. He was all kinds of sexy and I silently cursed myself for not having canceled on him instead. This was going to backfire on me. Axel picked me up easily and kissed me, running his big strong hands up and down my body, caressing me.
“I missed you,” he said, taking a break from our kiss and breathing in my scent. I smiled from his warmth and his words. Then I reminded myself not to get caught up in them. They were no doubt a lie, just a part of his act and pick up lines.
“How was your trip?” I asked instead.
“It was good; it would have been better if you were there. I thought about you the whole time.” He smiled sweetly. Laying it on a bit thick, I wanted to say but instead I chose to ignore his words.
“And your flight?” I asked, not commenting on his admission.
He was unfazed and answered me, “It was fine. Long, but I watched a few movies.” I nodded as he stepped into my apartment, picking my bag up from the floor and taking my hand in his, intertwining our fingers. “Come on, let’s go to my place, have some dinner and catch up.” He winked, kissing my head lightly. I sat in his car silently as he drove, something unusual for us. Axel inhaled loudly, clearly preparing himself to say something and making me anxious. I felt my nerves tense.
“Leah, you’re not like any girl I’ve ever met,” he started, really getting my attention. “I meet a lot of girls at bars and you were just different from all of them,” he continued, not something I took as a compliment. “From the way you dress, the way you act, I was drawn to you and then the way you smiled at me, I knew you felt the same.” He grinned brightly, remembering our first encounter. I felt my body betraying me and got butterflies from his treacherous words. He probably told all the girls that.
“Thanks,” I said, not sounding very thankful and I didn’t feel it either. “So what do you want to do for dinner?” I asked, completely changing the subject. Axel looked shocked and disappointed for a second before he hid his expression.
“Chinese sound okay?” he asked, wary.
“Sure,” I agreed and let the silence continue.
The second we got inside I attacked him with a kiss, grabbing at him hard. Momentarily taken aback, he hesitated before meeting me with just as much hunger and lust. Axel lifted me effortlessly and put my back against the wall, bracing me there, as his mouth made love to mine. His hands holding me gently like I was weightless, I would miss that.
He carried me to his giant bed and softly placed me down, looking into my eyes with such warmth that it hurt my heart that I’d never see them like this again. This all felt so real, it felt so right but it wasn’t, it was all just a lie. I decided for tonight, I’d forget all about our arrangement and indulge myself in my fantasies and pretend Axel did love me, like I loved him.
His fingers slowly grazed my bare midriff where my sweater had risen; his light touch sent shivers and tingles coursing throughout my body. He pulled my sweater up and I lifted my body to help him remove it and he discarded it on the floor. Axel stopped to gaze upon me, his eyes wide and lips parted as he took in my sexy black lace bra. It was a new
