Two policemen come through guns pointed in front of them searching the area “Where is he?” they ask still not holstering their weapons “Kitchen” I say with a shaky voice, one of them says something into his radio as they round the corner.
My mind is all foggy, I feel like I’m not connected to my body. Abi! She said if I feel like I can’t get back I should think of my focal point, closing my eyes I focus on Reid.
I imagine us being together.
Him kissing my neck.
His beautiful smile.
“Hey sweetie” someone says bringing me away from my thoughts “Let’s get you out of here okay. I’ve got two very worried boys outside waiting for you girls” I try to focus on her face, she looks kind. Wrinkles line her forehead and under her eyes, I almost smile when she pushes her big frame glasses up her nose, she kind of adorable. Giving me a warm smile, she puts her arm around me to lead me from the house.
Not wanting to leave Hayley I try to coax her to stand with me, she snaps her face to me as soon as try to pull her up “NO! I need Asher. Where is he!? ASHER!” she shouts her eyes wild with panic, hearing his name he rushes for the door “You can’t go in there fella, it’s a crime scene” a burly cop says at the door putting his arm up to stop him, “Let him in Ian, she won’t come without him” the nice lady cop says. Letting him through he approaches Hayley on the sofa, her eyes are wild with panic, whole body shaking “Hey baby. It’s me” she squeezes her eyes shut as she shakes her head, “No No he’s here! He’s back!” she’s delirious, her mind is cracking.
Asher luckily seems to know exactly what to do, “Think of your mum Hayley…Focus on her” he seems to be able to get through to her somehow. Looking up at him, it only takes a second of seeing at his face before she jumps on him, wrapping her arms around his neck “Shhhh, I got you” he whispers as he carries her out, needing to get her awa from here. Leaning against the lady, I stumble my way towards the door, seeing all the blue flashing lights outside, I finally feel safe…..
We made it.
“Beck’s!” Reid shouts as he runs towards me. Wrapping my arms around him I fall apart on his shoulder “Oh god, I thought I’d lost you” I thought I’d lost you too. Putting his hands on my face he looks me in the eyes before kissing the life out of me “We need to get her checked over Mr. Doyle” an officer says as he coaxes us towards and ambulance. Reid holds me up as I stumble my way over, the adrenaline dissipating
The quicker I can get away from the house… the better.
Luckily I only have a slight bruise on my cheek from the kitchen floor, Hayley gets the all clear with just a busted lip and black eye…..it could have been so much worse, but we decided to fight back this time.
We chose to survive.
They take me to hospital just to make sure the baby is okay, I hadn’t experienced any bleeding or cramps, but they wanted to make sure. Having an ultrasound, I thank god when see the little peanut is still there “That’s one tough little baby” the examiner says wiping the jelly off my stomach.
My tough little baby. I could have lost him tonight.
I hadn’t known I was pregnant long, but the relief I feel at knowing he’s ok in there is huge.
I won’t let anyone hurt you
“Is he okay?” Reid asks, he hasn’t left my side the entire time. I’ve never seen him cry before but seeing him now with watery eyes looking at our baby, makes me love him even more. “Perfect, for the next few weeks I want you to just rest Becca, let your body recover” wheeling her chair over she hands me and Reid a pamphlet “This explains about any symptoms you may get, the ones in red you need to call us for straight away” Reid takes it from her and stuff it in his pocket, no doubt to over analyse later “So, No dancing?” I ask earning a look from Reid “Not for at least two weeks. Your midwife will advise you when you see her for your next appointment”
Great, more time off.
We say our thankyou’s and are finally discharged home. I just hope I can go in that house again. Reid insists on pushing me to the cab in a wheelchair, feeling exhausted I don’t have the energy to fight with him. It’s completely over kill, but my legs are feeling sluggish anyway. He also has a face of barely contained fury right now… no way I’m poking the bear.
Pulling up, I see a police car still in the driveway, I’m guessing they want my statement now. Will I go to prison if he’s dead? I feel a sense of dread at seeing the house, wringing my hands together I take deep breaths in an attempt to calm my racing heart “Hey. We go in together. We face it, together” Reid tells me grabbing my hand.
I can do this
Pulling on my big girl pants, I take a deep breath and open the car door.
He’s not there anymore
He can’t hurt me again
Taking my hand, he gives it a reassuring squeeze. I don’t know what I would have done without him today, so many times I felt like was going to fall apart…. But somehow… he keeps me together.
Walking in I see Asher on the sofa chatting to Detective Sullivan “Becca, are you okay? How’s the baby?” he asks as soon as he see’s us “We’re okay, got the all clear that little peanut
