When I aimed the gun, I just wanted to hit him anywhere, I wasn’t paying attention to where the bullet went “We assume he passed out from shock and blood loss. Your mother was detained not long ago actually. She was found in a bar arguing with another patron about stealing her drink, she was found with almost £5000 cash on her person.”
Why did she have so much cash?
“She is being charged with aiding a fugitive, grievous assault and drunk and disorderly” I need to tell her…. I need to finally stand up for myself “And 20 years of child abuse and assault” I tell her holding my head high, its time my mum paid for making my life hell. Smiling proudly at me she rights some notes down on her pad “Okay, When you are ready you can come and give both statements. All I will say as a police officer is they will be going away for a long time, you can be sure of that….as a mother, I want to tell you I am incredibly proud of you, for fighting back, fighting for yourself” walking over I give her a hug and to say thank you for everything, her words mean more to me now than ever. I’m done not fighting for myself and I won’t let anyone walk all over me again.
The next couple of weeks fly by without much drama for once. It takes me a full week to walk in the kitchen without running back out to throw up, I’m calling it great progress. Reid continues to treat me as if I were made of glass, on one hand, I love how attentive he’s being. On the other…..he’s driving me insane. I physically had to push him out of the bathroom every time I wanted a use the bathroom or shower, like I was going to break down when I was cleaning my teeth….it has become a great skill resisting the urge to roll my eyes when he tells me to leave the bathroom door open.
Three days after the attack I go down to the station to give both my statements, it was horrible and exhausting, but Reid was there every step of the way. It turns out, Gary had given mum more money the night he came to the house, he paid her to be able to rape me…again. She confessed to everything once she sobered up in the cells,
How he paid her to lure me to the house the first time,
Then again to keep her quiet when he came for me again.
I’d put a spanner in their plan when I went to the house that day, but when she saw my car, they cooked up a new plan. Knowing I was in there, they started making noise in an effort to convince me they were distracted. Their plan working, I snuck downstairs trying to escape when they caught me. She locked the front door knowing I would have to go through the kitchen to use the back way, I played right into their trap. She’d written me a letter while in her cell, I have no clue why, the only words she ever said to me all my life were vile, full of poison. When they gave it to me I’d been so shocked that I just shoved it into my bag and still haven’t had the guts to open it.
Hayley had also gave her statement as is thankfully doing a lot better now and we have Asher to thank for that, he brought her back from wherever her mind decided to take her. She still takes to her bed most days, but she’s been venturing the house a little more over the last week…. Everywhere except the kitchen.
I’ve been inundated with visitors since it happened, with Sherri visiting almost every day. She was pissed that I hadn’t told her about being pregnant as soon as I found out but understood when I explained about the paternity and not knowing what I was going to do at first. It’s still in my thoughts every day that Gary may be my baby’s father, but I’ve been talking to Abi regularly about it and it’s been a little easier. The nightmares of the baby looking like him still come most nights though, but Reid swoops in and tells me how much he loved both of us already and that the baby will be part him even if biologically we find he isn’t.
He still hadn’t touched me sexually, even after getting the all clear from the doctor… it was making me very hormonal. I’ve been snapping at everyone who crosses me this last week, I even resorted to begging Reid to take me the other night. I laid on the bed in the new teddy that id ordered from bondora, waiting for him to come home from work, feeling sexier than ever, and a lot turned on. When he got home he looked like he was
