The biggest plus to come out of the last few days was actually about Tiff, she turned up at the house a week after the attack, Reid went to chew her out and scare her off but I decided to hear what she had to say.
I said I’m going to start fighting for myself now, and this was where I wanted to begin.
She shocked the hell out of me and Reid when she apologised for what she had done, she deleted the video and pictures right in front of us and promised there was no copies. It may be a trick, but I can’t bring myself to care about it anymore. It all seems so mundane now after what we’ve been through.
Things seem to finally be settling now, I can finally get some sort of peace. I still have the trails to get through, but they have been put to the back of my mind for today as it’s my midwife appointment. Hopefully she tells me I can start teaching again.
I need something to get rid of this sexual frustration.
Chapter Nineteen
Laying down on the cold bed, me and Reid watch the screen as she scans my belly. It’s been two weeks since I saw this little peanut, and I’m shocked when I see how much he’s grown! “It’s all looking perfect Becca, growing nicely. Baby is measuring about about 6 weeks along at the moment, so you are still very early days, but so far so good” 6 weeks… that would mean there is more chance of the baby being Reid’s! “Can you pinpoint conception by any chance” I hope she can, I don’t want this hanging over me for the rest of my pregnancy “I can’t be 100%. But from 9 weeks pregnant we can do a paternity test while baby is still in the womb. It poses little risk, but there is still some” she says wiping the jelly off me “Do some research into it, and we can chat about it at your next appointment” I don’t want to risk my baby, but I need to know….
Feeling a little more positive, I suggest going to the shopping centre to look at baby stuff. I know its too early to buy anything, but I’m actually allowing myself to get a little exited. Reid is like a kid in a candy shop when we get to Mothercare, its adorable to see him getting so hyped up about this. I ended up having to drag him out after an hour, only buying one soft yellow blanket, I wasn’t going to get anything, but when I say it with the little peanut on it, I had to bring it home.
Today is Brady’s birthday, but trying to get Reid to go alone is infuriating. I get he’s worried about leaving me alone again, but Gary is in a cell right now, he can’t hurt me again. Trying to explain this to him proves to be fruitless, giving up I agree to order In and have a quiet movie night with him. I feel bad for not seeing Brady on his birthday, but who knows how I’ll react to being at a party rammed with people.
Hearing a knock at the door, Reid gets up to grab the food while I get some plates ready in the kitchen. Hayley and Asher decided to have an early night and are watching something upstairs, giving me and Reid a quiet night alone. Grabbing two cokes from the fridge, I wonder where he’s got to with our dinner? Walking to the front room I freeze when I see everyone, Sherri, Brady, Spencer and Gavin all stand there with giant smiles on their faces “Hey babe” Brady says walking over to give me a squeeze “What are you guys doing here? You should be celebrating at your party right now” I saw with a grin of my own “Wasn’t a party without my two best friends. You didn’t really expect me to have a birthday without you did ya?” he says bringing me in for another bear hug. “We all missed you like crazy lately. And we know you needed some time, but being cooped up in here is going to drive you mad” Sherri says when she steals me from Brady for her own hug. “So, we have come to kidnap both of you and take you to the garage for a hang out” Gavin says. How do I tell them I can’t be around loads of people at a party yet “Don’t worry, its just going to be us, like it should be” Sherri explains. I can’t believe they would do this for me, Brady loves a party, so for him to want a quiet one for his birthday is huge “Guys, I don’t know what to say” I say feeling the tears well up, these guys truly are the best friends I could have. “You say let’s go!” Spenser says grinning. Can I do this? They’re right when they say I’m going stir crazy in here, but am I ready for this?
Only one way to find out… “Let’s go”
Pulling up at the house, I start to think this is a bad idea, I can feel myself sweating already and I haven’t even got out of the car yet “Take as much time as you need” Reid says quietly as he grabs my hand, feeling him rubbing his thumb back and forth over my finders is calming me. After about 20 minuets of sitting in the car focusing on Reid, I finally get the courage to open the door. Breath…. You can do this.
It actually turns out pretty great, as they promised, its only us here, which massively helped my nerves. I’m still a little jumpy but it’s been an amazing night. After watching the band practice their set, we
