“I can’t bear it any longer,” cried the poor wife. “I knew you were talking it all over, and deciding what it was to be; and when one’s life is hanging on a chance, how can one keep quiet and not interfere? Oh, Gerald, Gerald! I have been a true wife to you. I know I am not clever; but I would have died to do you any good. You are not going to forsake me!” cried poor Louisa, going up to him and putting her arms round him. “I said Frank was to tell you everything, but a man can never tell what is in a woman’s heart. Oh, Gerald, why should you go and kill me! I will never oppose you any more; whatever you want, I will give in to it as freely as if it were my own way. I will make that my own way, Gerald, if you will only listen to me. Whatever changes you please, oh Gerald, I will never say a word, nor your father, nor anyone! If the Bishop should interfere, we would all stand up for you. There is not a soul in Wentworth to oppose—you know there is not. Put anything you please in the church—preach how you please—light the candles or anything. Gerald, you know it is true I am saying—I am not trying to deceive you!” cried the poor soul, bewildered in her folly and her grief.
“No, Louisa, no—only you don’t understand,” said her husband, with a groan: he had raised his head, and was looking at her with a hopeless gleam of impatience in the pity and anguish of his eyes. He took her little hand and held it between his own, which were trembling with all this strain—her little tender helpless woman’s hand, formed only for soft occupations and softer caresses; it was not a hand which could help a man in such an emergency; it was without any grasp in it to take hold upon him, or force of love to part—a clinging impotent hand, such as holds down, but cannot raise up. He held it in a close tremulous pressure, as she stood looking down upon him, questioning him with eager hopeful eyes, and taking comfort in her ignorance from his silence, and the way in which he held her. Poor Louisa concluded she was yet to win the day.
“I will turn Puseyite too,” she said with a strange little touch of attempted laughter. “I don’t want to have any opinions different from my husband’s; and you don’t think your father is likely to do anything to drive you out of the church? You have only given us a terrible fright, dear,” she continued, beginning to tremble again, as he shook his head and turned away from her. “You did not really mean such a dreadful thing as sending me away. You could not do without me, Gerald—you know you could not.” Her breath was getting short, her heart quickening in its throbs—the smile that was quivering on her face got no response from her husband’s downcast eyes. And then poor Louisa lost all her courage; she threw herself down at his feet, kneeling to him. “Oh, Gerald, it is not because you want to get rid of me? You are not doing it for that? If you don’t stay in the Rectory, we shall be ruined—we shall not have enough to eat! and the Rectory will go to Frank, and your children will be cast upon the world—and what, oh what is it for, unless it is to get rid of me?” cried Mrs. Wentworth. “You could have as much freedom as you like here at your own living—nobody would ever interfere or say what are you doing? and the Bishop is papa’s old friend. Oh, Gerald, be wise in time, and don’t throw away all our happiness for a fancy. If it was anything that could not be arranged, I would not mind so much; but if we all promise to give in to you, and that you shall do what you please, and nobody will interfere, how can you have the heart to make us all so wretched? We will not even be respectable,” said the weeping woman; “a family without any father, and a wife without her husband—and he living all the time! Oh, Gerald, though I think I surely might be considered as much as candles, have the altar covered with lights if you wish it; and if you never took off your surplice any more, I would never say a word. You can do all that and stay in the Rectory. You have not the heart—surely—surely you have not the heart—all for an idea of your own, to bring this terrible distress upon the children and me?”
“God help us all!” said Gerald, with a sigh of despair, as he lifted her up sobbing in a hysterical fit, and laid her on the sofa. He had to stand by her side for a long time holding her hand, and soothing her, with deeper and deeper shadows growing over his face. As for Frank, after pacing the room in great agitation for some time, after trying to interpose, and failing, he went away in a fever of impatience and distress into the garden, wondering whether he could ever find means to take up the broken thread, and urge again upon his brother the argument which, but for this fatal interruption, he thought might have moved him. But gathering thoughts came thick upon the Perpetual Curate. He did not go back to make another attempt, even when he knew by the sounds through the open windows that Louisa had been led to her own room upstairs. He stood outside and
