“Hi! Cup of tea?” Somehow I manage a natural tone. “Everything all right? I wondered where you’d got to!”
“Fine.” He smiles affectionately and snakes an arm around my waist.
He’s giving no hint that he was just yelling at his parents. I never realized he was such a good actor. He should go into politics.
“I’ll take those in to my parents, actually.” He quickly removes the tray from my grasp. “They’re … er … looking at the art.”
“Great!” I manage a smile, but my chin is wobbling. They’re not looking at the art. They’re telling each other what a terrible choice their son has made for a wife. They’re making bets that we’ll be divorced within a year.
As Magnus emerges from the antechapel again, I take a deep breath, feeling sick with nerves.
“So … what do your parents make of all this?” I say as lightly as I can manage. “I mean, your father’s not really into church, is he? Or … or … marriage, even.”
I’ve given him the perfect cue to tell me. It’s all set up. But Magnus shrugs sulkily.
“They’re OK.”
I sip my tea a few times, staring miserably at the ancient stone floor, willing myself to pursue it. I should contradict him. I should say, “I heard you arguing.” I should have it out with him.
But … I can’t do it. I’m not brave enough. I don’t want to hear the truth—that his parents think I’m crap.
“Just got to check an email.” Is it my imagination or is Magnus avoiding my gaze?
“Me too.” I peel away from him miserably and go to sit by myself on a side pew. For a few moments I hunch my shoulders, trying to resist the urge to cry. At last I reach for my phone and switch it on. I might as well catch up with some stuff. I haven’t looked at it for hours. As I switch it on, I almost recoil at the number of buzzes and flashes and bleeps which greet me.
Top of the pile is a text from Sam, which arrived about twenty minutes ago:
On way to Germany over weekend. Heading to mountainous region. Will be off radar for a bit.
Seeing his name fills me with a longing to talk to someone, and I text back:
Hi there. Sounds cool. Why Germany?
There’s no reply, but I don’t care; it’s cathartic just to type.
So much for fake ring. Did not work. Was found out and now M’s parents think I’m a weirdo.
For a moment I wonder whether to tell him that Lucinda had the ring and ask him what he thinks. But … no. It’s too complicated. He won’t want to get into it. I send the text—then realize he might think I’m having a go at him. Quickly I type a follow-up:
Thx for help, anyway. Appreciate it.
Maybe I should have a look at his in-box. I’ve been neglecting it. There are so many emails with the same subject heading, I find myself squinting at the screen in puzzlement—till it dawns on me. Of course. Everyone’s responded to my invitation to send in ideas! These are all the replies!
For the first time this afternoon, I feel a small glow of pride in myself. If one of these people has come up with a groundbreaking idea and revolutionizes Sam’s company, then it will all be down to me.
I click on the first one, full of anticipation.
Dear Sam,
I think we should have yoga at lunchtimes, funded by the company, and several others agree with me.
Best,
Sally Brewer.
I frown uncertainly. It’s not exactly what I was expecting, but I suppose yoga
OK, next one.
Dear Sam,
Thanks for your email. You asked for honesty. The rumor among our department is that this so-called ideas exercise is a weeding-out process. Why not just be honest yourself and
Kind regards,
Tony
I blink in astonishment. What?
OK, that’s just a ridiculous reaction. He’s got to be a nutter. I quickly scroll down to the next one.
Dear Sam,
Is there a budget for this “new ideas’ program you’ve launched? A few team leaders are asking.
Thanks,
Chris Davies
That’s another ridiculous reaction. A
