“Well you must be if you fell asleep in the forest, don’t you know how dangerous that is? My five year old cousin knows not to do that!”
I turn around without saying anything and start walking. I hear him shout after me but I just ignore him.
“Alexia...wait”
Wait? So I can be called stupid again... no thanks.
Not looking where I should be putting my feet I trip and fall forwards. I brace myself for the impact that’s about to come.
But it doesn’t.
Instead a pair of strong arms wraps themselves around me and I’m pulled into a solid chest. Why do I love this feeling so much? This feeling of just being held by him. It feels so right. But surely if something was right then it wouldn’t be so complicated, would it?
“I’m sorry,” he says quietly in my ear. I try to ignore the shivers it sends through my body, and I remember that this isn’t the first time he has said sorry to me. If two people are meant to be together the way that he keeps trying to tell me we are, then we shouldn’t have to keep apologising to each other. I try to gain back some of my anger from just moments ago and hold on to it.
“No Logan. That’s not going to work this time.” I’m surprised at the strength in the voice. I’m not sure how long it will last though.
“Let me go.” I say quietly.
“I can’t, ask me to do anything Alexia, I will do it for you. Anything...anything but that.” I almost believe him.
Almost.
I push my self firmly out of his hold and he lets me, but his eyes are focused only on me.
“Let me go Logan.” I say again but louder this time and I turn and walk away. To my surprise he lets me go. Maybe he didn’t care that much after all. I can feel the tears about to spill onto my cheeks and I can’t do anything to stop them. I reach into my bag and grab my phone. I find the number I want quickly and press call.
“Hey” The other person answers.
“Hey, can you come get me please? No questions?”
Chapter Seventeen
Coward
I can hear the concern in his voice. It pulls on me and makes my feet stop walking. I do what he asks, and wait for him to catch up to me, it doesn’t take long.
“Alexia. I can explain, just wait will you?”
He comes to stand behind me. I can’t see him but I know he is there. I can feel him standing close to me.
“I know that you’re not stupid, it’s just that I need you to be safe and I don’t think that you understand how dangerous it is. Especially for you.” he talks low over my shoulder and I involuntary lean back towards him, he takes that as an invitation to hold onto my waist.
“Why especially me? What difference does it make just because its me?” I question him quietly. I can’t turn to face him. I just keep staring at the road ahead.
“I mean, you are in more danger because of who you are. Because of who you are to me. Because of what you mean to me.” He talks low into my ear, but his words are just confusing me even more.
“And what am I to you?” my heart beats faster and I try to control my voice to keep it steady.
“Everything” he says one word and drops his head into the crook of my neck and sighs a sound of contentment.
“I don’t understand you Logan. I don’t know what you want from me.” I speak honestly.
“I don’t want anything from you Alexia, I just want you. I need you. You don’t know how much I need you.” as he speaks his arms snake further around my waist and he pulls me even tighter to his body. I don’t know what to say, so I don’t say anything, I just stand there letting him hold me.
After a few minutes my phone starts ringing and he stiffens at the tone and removes his arms from around me when I answer it.
“Okay I’ll be there in a minute. Thank you.” I hang up the call and turn to face him.
“Why? Why him? Don’t go with him? You can’t expect me to just watch you go with him and do nothing.” One hand is in a tight fist at his side the other is going roughly through his hair.
“Yes I can expect you to do that. There’s no reason why you shouldn’t be able to do that. We aren’t together Logan. It’s not up to you what I do. I’m going Logan. You have to let me. I think we both just need some time to think things over and when you have, I think you will realise this is for the best.” He goes to step towards me but I hold out my hand to stop him.
“Alex. You ok babe?” I hear Chris call from somewhere behind me, I don’t take my eyes off Logan. His eyes have turned black. I’ve never seen them change that fast before. I’ve never seen anybodies eyes do that before. I start to feel nervous. Not for me. I know now that Logan would never hurt me. I feel nervous for Chris. I’m not entirely sure now what I have bought him into. All I know is that; with Logan nothing is ever simple or normal. Sometimes it doesn’t even feel human.
