I walk over to Ella who smiles at me while holding Luke in her arms. DJ is playing on the ground beside her with Star. I decide to spend some time with the little ones since it’s clear that they miss me.
That much is obvious when I sit on the ground with Hale and they all swarm me.
Before I know it, I’m on my back with all the little ones on top of me. I carefully hold Luke in my arms since he’s the youngest and I don’t want him to fall to the ground and hurt himself.
I’m glad that I am sober right now because I wouldn’t dream of being drunk in front of these kids.
I spend the next hour playing with them before I grab some food. I end up sharing with the kids, so I had to make a new plate several times. The way they barely left my side shows how much they missed me and that makes me feel like shit because they shouldn’t be missing me when I’ve been in town this whole time.
Sure, I am going through a hard time right now, but these little ones don’t understand that. They only know that their uncle isn’t around. I make a promise to myself to spend more time with them.
After we eat, Camilla shows up with her family.
I have to stop my jaw from dropping because she looks completely different. Her hair has changed to a deep red colour and she looks much happier than the woman she was when she left.
I find myself checking her out even though she’s in a long sleeved shirt and pants. I know that she is strategically wearing them to hide all of her scars.
I didn’t see much of her scars except the ones that were on her arms. I have a feeling there are more on her body. Still, she looks good.
She is effortlessly beautiful. I can tell that she is barely wearing any makeup. I instantly feel guilty for the time I spend looking at her and finding myself attracted. I have no business looking at her this way.
It has been so long since I have looked at another woman. Since Stacey walked into my life, I found myself in uncharted territory.
I can’t deal with this right now.
I have to make myself look at the people behind her. I see her parents. She’s like a younger version of her mother, but her mother has purple in her hair and is looking at everyone with a nervous smile. Camilla is looking at everyone smiling and relaxed, showing just how much she trusts us already.
Her father and brother are spitting images of each other except her father has grey hair.
You can tell that her brother is sceptical of everyone. I can see he is fiercely protective of her. He’s standing tall with his arms crossed and, even though he’s not exactly glaring, he’s not smiling either.
Everyone greets them with smiles and warm welcomes.
Camilla looks around. When she catches my eyes, she smiles shyly at me. I give her a small smile back and the feelings that stir inside of me are not ones that I should be having.
I try my hardest to shut out those thoughts.
I take off while everyone is catching up with Camilla because I don’t know how to look at her with these feelings stirring inside of me.
Why do I have to think of her this way?
Her smiling at me with a light blush on her cheeks shouldn’t make me feel warm inside.
I’ve been cold a long time and I’m not ready to feel warmth.
I don’t know if I will ever be.
Camilla
I watch as Tyson leaves the second after I smile at him.
I can’t help but feel hurt at that, but I also know that he’s going through something I couldn’t imagine.
I decide to think about all of that later.
The women all smile and hug me. Derek is grinning when he sees me.
“Welcome back Camilla!” he says loudly.
“Thanks. I’m glad that we could come. You know my parents Anthony and Crystal, and this is my brother Xavier. Guys, this is everyone. I’m sure that they will introduce themselves since there are so many of them that I may have forgotten some names,” I admit with a blush.
“That’s alright. There won’t be a test,” Ella says with a wink.
Everyone looks when Sophie suddenly runs to the bushes and pukes.
“In your face! She’s having twins!” a huge biker says pointing at Derek.
Everyone shouts and cheers. I look over at Krista and see her rubbing her stomach.
Looks like things are getting exciting around here.
I love seeing how close everyone is. I can only hope that I can be a part of this someday.
My parents actually sit and talk with Derek, Lily, and the big biker and his Old Lady. They look like they are having a good time so I can sit and relax.
My brother doesn’t move from my side, but he rarely does when we are out.
“I love your hair! Who did it?” Krista asks excitedly.
“My mom.” I say and jerk my thumb over my shoulder in the direction that I know she’s in.
Their jaws drop. “Wow, that’s amazing! Maybe she can do something with mine?” Olivia asks slightly brushing her hair back. It’s in a messy bun on top of her head. You can tell that’s she’s exhausted running around after two kids, but she looks completely happy.
“I’m sure she would be happy to. She has a room set up in our house if you would like to come over and have your hair done,” I say.
“Yes, let’s ask when your mom isn’t doing the grown up talk. We can have a girls’ day and spend
