"Course I fucking have! She won't come near me!" I glanced at the picture of her in sexy white lace underwear, smirking and my heart thudded. "She looks relaxed and happy in those pictures. I miss her looking like that." She rubbed my shoulder softly and nodded.
"She was fucking shitting herself the whole time she was having them taken. She said she would never do anything like it again." I laughed and rolled my eyes as I watched Chlo stand and offer her hand to me. "No honestly she was nearly sick on the way there. She begged me not to leave her." She shook her head as though she was trying her best to stop reliving the memory.
"Well she looked phenomenal." I added as I hauled myself up and straightened my grey suit jacket.
"She fucking did. I'd have gone gay for her." I pushed her softly and caught her as she wobbled on her heel. She laughed a pure laugh which forced me to crack a smile. A real smile.
There were speeches made and I'd watched her walk across that stage to receive her certificate. She was flushed in colour and Jay was right. In that moment I idolised her. I adored her. I clapped along with the crowd but all I wanted to do was pick her up and kiss her. Tell her I was proud, ridiculously so. I watched from a distance as other board members congratulated her on her 2.1 first class honours degree. I watched her mum cry and homed out to listen to their conversation.
"Smile girls!" Her mum was ushering them in closer together as she tried to take a picture. I glanced at her and her eyes met mine. She offered me a small closed smile and I tilted my head slightly. She pulled her eyes away from mine and smiled wider for a picture with her best friends in her uni cap and gown.
"Christ sake Lena hurry up!" Soph winged. Their parents were all there admiring their daughters. Jay and I recognised Sophs dad. He'd been involved with business dealings in the law firm. He was a good man and his daughter was the image of him. From what I'd overheard Nancy's mum and dad worked away a lot. Usually in the states. Her dad constantly kept leaving mid way through conversations and Nance never batted an eyelid. Jay placed his hand on my shoulder and nodded at me. I'd got a lump in my throat that was rising higher every time I looked at her.
"What's happened with you two?" He questioned and I shook my head. I didn't know.
"We had a tiff over her leaving to run with me and since that night she ent been the same." I muttered as I watched her friends snap pictures of her. She looked every bit classy. Her emerald green long sleeved gown and wrapped bottom hugged her in the best way. Her hair draped over her shoulders and fell perfectly and I heard Jay sigh.
"Ask her what's going on Haz? She's shut down a little. Even at work…" I didn't need to hear anymore. I was hurting her again. I promised her I'd never hurt her again and I was. I watched as she kissed her mums cheek and walked past me. I reached and gripped her fingers in mine as she glanced up for less than a second. There was that undeniable charge between us. I watched her walk away towards the toilets and excused myself from a boring conversation with university lectures. I followed her and locked the bathroom door behind me. She'd gone into a disabled loo and I glanced around it. She had just pulled up her knickers and I gulped as she flushed.
"I'm so proud of you Av." Her eyes were filling with tears and she nearly pushed me over from the force she hugged me with. I held her head against my chest and watched her look up at me underneath her wet lashes. I wiped her tears and was careful not to smudge her make up. My heart ached seeing her upset.
"Av tell me what's going on?" I whispered and watched her shake her head.
"I don't know." Her voice was shaking as she placed her lips against mine. A groan escaped my lips as her fingers tangled in my hair and she pushed me against the bathroom door. Her kisses were frantic and needy and as my hand dropped to her arse she bit her lip. "I just need you." Her tone was breathy and sexy and I watched as she stepped out of her knickers. I felt my length growing in my trousers and cleared my throat. Her bright green eyes looked darker now as she kissed me again and started to undo my trousers. "Av," I tried to catch her attention. To ask her why now of all the times but I was so consumed with desire, I didn't really care. I picked her up and pushed her back against the cool tiled bathroom wall and heard her gasp. I pulled her dress around her waist as we kissed and dropped her on my length. I watched her eyes close and her lips part as she moaned my name. That sound made me weak. I fucked her. Harder just like she asked. It was quick and dirty and when we were finished and I placed her on her feet she kissed me slowly. "I love you." She ran her hand over my stubble and went to unlock the door. I pulled her arm
