questions. Stupid girl hormones, all he has to do is sit here with his abs out and I’m ready to climb him like a tree. I need to make a note to buy myself a vibrator….. or a muzzle “She’s out with her councillor. Turns out she’s dating him” he says with a smile, I hope to god he can’t see the blush on my cheeks from my sordid thoughts “Wow, good for her. She deserves to be happy” I say with a genuine smile, Hayley is long overdue some happiness “What can I do for you?” he asks, okay straight to the point, I forgot how blunt he can be. My nerves start to get the better of me with his sitting there staring, I almost want to bottle it and just run back to Sherri’s. With the last bit of self-control I have, I rush out the question “I need to know what Tiff meant by having something on her phone to show us last night” I huff out “And don’t lie to me, I know there is something going on. I think after everything, I deserve to know” I tell him, thank god I got that out. Waiting patiently while he sits with his hands braced in front of him. He looks tired now I examine him closer, dark circles frame his beautiful deep blue eyes “You really want to know? It will change everything and nothing” he says cryptically, everything and nothing? What is that supposed to mean, damn man and his riddles! “I need to know” I tell him, he shifts in his seat making me wince as I rub my thighs together. I don’t have this reaction to any other man, I don’t know how he gets me so hot and bothered like he does, he runs both hands through his hair as he takes a deep breath “You remember the party Halloween night” he asks. Oh god, Thinking about that night makes heat rush to my cheeks, this is not going to help with how turned on I already am. That night we got all hot and heavy on the dancefloor at Brady’s, we may have borrowed his room and that was the first night I actually went down on him. We had done other stuff before, but blow jobs were terrifying for me at the time. I got so drunk that night that I lost all my inhibitions and dragged him into the nearest room. I was way beyond ready to have sex with him but he refused while I was drunk, that was the night before he dumped me. I’d gone back with Sherri that night because she was upset about breaking up with her sleezball of a boyfriend she had back then. The day after I found the note on my doorstep “Of course I remember that night, and the day after” I say sadly looking to the floor “You have to know, I didn’t see another way out. You were about to get your levels in dance, you were looking for a job and a career in it. I couldn’t let this happen, it would ruin your reputation before you even had one” he says, what is he talking about? “I’m so confused. What are you saying” he’s making no sense, how could anything from that night ruin my reputation?.
Blowing out a big breath he continues “I promised myself after you left, that if you came home and asked me, I would tell you the truth” he says looking at me “That night after we left the bedroom, Tiff came up to me. She was ranting and raving about her being perfect for me and that we should be together. She wanted me to leave you for her. I of course told her hell no, she then said she had something that would force my hand” he says, I knew she wanted him, she told as much many times while we were dating “What did she have?” I ask him, this is bad, I can’t see it in his eyes “When we went to the bedroom, we were so lost in each other that we didn’t think to check it was empty” check the room? There wasn’t anyone there, I think we would of noticed I laugh in my head “Tiff was in the bathroom, she heard us come in. She videoed the whole thing Beck’s, took photos the lot, she threatened to post them all over social media if I didn’t break it off with you. I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t want anyone seeing you like that, so I did what she asked…..I hurt you to help you” he says, he looks so broken, I can’t believe what I’m hearing….she was there! She saw me pleasuring my boyfriend, I feel sick….
Why didn’t he just tell me! Hormones forgotten; I get very angry. How could he hurt me so much, we should have been a team and worked through it, but instead he hurt me beyond words “You should have told me!” I yell, emotion coating my words “We could of figured it out together, but you just threw us away!” I’m losing control, I need to calm down before I say something I regret. Taking a calming breath, I look over and see him with his head in his hands “I understand why you did it” I say, trying to stay calm “But if I had to choose between losing you and losing dance, I would of chose dance every time. I love dancing, but I loved you more” I tell him as tears well in my eyes. We lost 2 years because of Tiff, because he didn’t tell me. My heart was broken and I had no say in the matter at all “I should have told you, I shouldn’t have let it go on this long. I hated it when you left, I felt like I’d lost a part of myself” he strangles
