She nodded. “Oh.”
“Yeah,” I said as I reached over and pulled her chin up to look me in the eye. I wanted her full attention for my next question.
“Hey Cass, I’m going to need you to do something for me, okay? I know that Andrew is probably your only serious relationship experience, but I’d really appreciate it if you’d stop comparing me to him. Because we’ll never be the same and being compared to him feels like dirt in an open wound. I’ll always do better by you.”
“God, Beau, I didn’t… I’m… I’m sorry.”
“I know you don’t mean to and I forgive you.” Smiling down at her, I kissed her lips lightly. “Alright, now let’s watch this movie.”
I put my arm around her shoulder and pulled her closer to me on the couch. Once she’d finally relaxed, I kissed her temple.
The movie seemed to drag on, but I wasn’t watching it anyhow. I was too busy feeling the touch of her small hand as it crept across my abs and her head resting on my shoulder. Each time I took a breath, I’d inhale her peonies and vanilla scent. A combination of shampoo and her natural sweetness. I wanted to bask in her beauty. Take in every moment given to me.
Truth is I’d had an erection most of the night just from being around her. Luckily, I was wearing suitable pants for such a situation today, unlike at the lake earlier. I wanted her. All of her, but I wouldn’t rush it. I was going to let her make the first move in whatever was going to happen next. I may be a man now, but I was still damn scared of being rejected.
Most of the fear probably came from my lack of experience. Yes, I’d been dreaming of what I’d do to pleasure her for years, but I definitely didn’t want to mess it up. As if she’d been reading my mind, she slid out from under my arm to her knees in front of me.
“Cass, what are you doing?” I asked as she slid herself between my legs. With unsure hands, she reached up to my belt and started unbuckling it.
My hands grabbed hers, stopping her. “As much as I like where this is heading, darlin’. I really need to know what’s going on in that pretty head of yours.” She bit her lip and looked up at me.
“Cassidy Mae?”
She raised her gaze to mine. “I want to do this with you.”
“Ok, believe me. I’m kicking myself for even questioning things, but I want to make sure that you’re sure about doing this. It’s a big step for both of us. I just want to make really certain we’re on the same page about us.”
Taking a steady breath, she spoke a confession, “You’ve been amazing to me this whole time and I just want to show you some appreciation.”
Irritation coursed through me. I wanted her to do this because she wanted to, not out of some feeling of obligation. “Cass, you don’t owe me a damn thing. I don’t need oral sex for treating you the way you’re supposed to be treated and quite frankly it’s insulting that you see me that way.”
She shook her head. “No… crap. That’s not what I meant. I just. I want you and if you’ve really been thinking about me and waiting on me for years then I’m sure you’ve been dreaming about this. Plus, you’ve had a boner all day and I want to help fix it. I want to be free with you.”
“You’re absolutely sure this is what you want?”
“I’m positive.”
“Ok, darlin’. You do as much or as little as you want. If at any point you want to stop, you stop, okay? I don’t ever want you to feel uncomfortable or feel like you have to do something for me. We’re going at your speed.”
She winked at me. “I’ll stop when you’ve come in my mouth, Beau Montgomery.”
A groan erupted from my lips, “Jesus, Cass.”
I let go of the grip I had on her hands and she went back to unfastening my belt buckle. She unzipped my Levis and slowly pulled my erection from its confines. Once I was fully exposed, she wasted no time. Her small, soft hands caressed my shaft from base to tip. The sensation was overwhelming and if I didn’t control myself, I’d burst like a teenage boy. When she started peppering kisses up the side of my shaft, I was lost. My head fell back against the couch as a moan slipped from my lips.
“Cass…”
Before her name departed from my lips, her mouth was on me. Sucking my tip and tracing around it with her tongue. Warmth enveloped me and I wondered how warm other parts of her were. Because if her mouth was ecstasy, then… I didn’t realize until that moment how bad my cock ached to be inside her body. Any part. I wasn’t picky.
As another groan ripped from my mouth, I felt a smile form on her lips. This was pure bliss, heaven, and it was being provided for the girl I’d loved since I was young.
She ran her hands up my shaft while she sucked making sure that every part of me was gaining much-wanted attention. As she sucked, licked, and bobbed her head on me I relished it. My Cassidy Mae was causing me to feel this good. My hips bucked up to meet her of their own volition. I was lost in the magic of this feeling, no longer in control. When she cupped my balls in her hand, my eyes opened and landed on her emerald green beauties. As she kissed her way down me and then put her mouth on my balls and sucked, I knew I couldn’t hold it in much longer. My head fell back and I gulped a moan.
Working her way back up she sucked me the whole way down her throat and that did it.
“You’re gonna
