“Yes.” My eyes found the floor, yet again embarrassed.
“Hey, don’t do that. Don’t be embarrassed, Cass. It makes me happy that I was your first. That I could make you come, being as inexperienced as I am, darlin’.”
A satisfied smirk covered his face and touched his eyes and it was at that moment I realized we would never, ever go back to the way things were. Now we were attached, feelings deeper than just a simple like. I was falling head over heels for my high school crush and I felt like such an idiot for not seeing him all those years ago.
Today was the start of the town countdown to the fair. There was a certain tension in the air and I didn’t understand why. The last couple of weeks with Cassidy Mae had been like a dream. After the first time we messed around, she wasn’t as shy with expressing her desire to do certain things with me. She’d let me do things to her body, worship her in a way I’d been dreaming about for years. The one thing I really wanted still hadn’t happened, but I wasn’t rushing it.
Some days I wanted to pinch myself thinking maybe I truly was dreaming. Maybe I’d died and was stuck in Cassidy heaven. I was okay with that. The guys told me I was whipped and if I was whipped for Cassidy Mae then so be it. Maybe it was immature having these thoughts about her, but damnit I didn’t care.
Early this morning I’d gotten on Zeus for the first time. Months of working with him and he was finally coming around. He was going to be a good horse when it was said and done. I had plans for him. Cassidy Mae didn’t know it yet, but Zeus would be hers someday. I just had to make sure he was completely safe first
Cass had Oakley out running barrels this morning before the summer heat took over. It was unnecessary to run horses in hot weather. They were looking good and I was proud of her. Not only had she worked to bring Oakley up to speed for barrels, but she’d also done a lot of changing and growing in the few months she’d been here. When I first saw her she was skittish and jumpy like a horse that’s been abused one too many times. Over these last few months, she’d become more independent and didn’t jump at everything that went bump in the night.
The whole crew was gathered in the kitchen, chatting about the horses and the upcoming events while they piled meat and cheese on their sandwiches. I sat back and watched. Cassidy Mae was interacting with everyone. She’d seemingly fit right into our little crew. She was a part of us now and I wasn’t letting her go. In the back of my mind, I still had worries. I had concerns. We hadn’t heard from her husband’s brother in a few weeks now, but I knew he’d show up at some point and we all had to be ready.
We all grabbed seats around the table, while the conversation continued. Cassidy piped up and hassled Remington about something. Reagan teased Rhett about something. I shook my head. I didn’t like the two of them together, but I’d accepted it. Reagan was right. She was a grown adult and if she was putting her eggs in Rhett’s basket, so to speak, then I had to let her fall on her face. She’d learn. Who knows maybe she’s what Rhett had been missing all these years? Maybe she’d be the one to finally calm down his playboy ways. There was only so much protecting a big brother could do, and unfortunately, hearts weren’t in that protection contract. Remy and Faith were jostling each other back and forth talking about a four-wheeler ride later that afternoon.
My eyes fell back to Cassidy Mae sitting beside me at the table and I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face when she looked over and winked at me. I was done for, completely in love with this girl. I reached over and let my hand trail up her leg, under the skirt she was wearing, and the blush that crossed her face gave me the slightest chuckle. She was shy, but she liked it when I touched her. A small touch here, a tender kiss there. My lips pressed against the softness of her downy skin. The smell of her perfume when I got her all worked up. Her squeal when I made her come. The giggle she gave only to me when she found something absolutely funny. The way her eyes sparkled when I brought her flowers or told her she was pretty.
Life seemed perfect and I wanted to live in the land of perfection just a little while longer. I leaned over and whispered softly in her ear. My hot breath landed against her skin and gained me a small shiver. “You want to go to the springs with me in a little bit?”
“Yes.” She grinned up at me.
“Clothing is optional this time, Cass.”
“Oh, is it?”
“I’m leaving it in your hands. Like I said… you decide where this goes and how far. I’m not pushing, but I’m ready to have all of you, Cass. I’ll say this and leave it at that. You give me all of you and there’s no turning back. You’ll have all of me in return. Everything. You’re it for me. You have been for a long time and I don’t plan on going anywhere.”
She opened her mouth to speak, but then closed it. I could see her shutting down. We’d had several moments recently. Times where she was open and free to let me love her and give her pleasure, but I could see her starting to rebuild those walls over a few of the words I’d said.
I waited for her to continue. “I don’t know
