was eleven years ago -- [
ASTROV. Have I changed much since then?
MARINA. Oh, yes. You were handsome and young then, and now you're an old man and not handsome any more. You drink now, too.
ASTROV. Yes, ten years have made me another man. And why? Because I'm overworked. Nanny, I'm on my feet from dawn till dusk. I know no rest; at night I tremble under my blankets for fear of being dragged out to visit some one who is sick; I've toiled without repose or a day's freedom since I've known you; could I help growing old? And then, existence here is tedious, anyway; it's a senseless, dirty business, this life, and gets you down. Everyone about here is eccentric, and after living with them for two or three years one grows eccentric oneself. It's inevitable. [
MARINA. Don't you want a bite of something to eat?
ASTROV. No. During the third week of Lent I went to the epidemic at Malitskoe. It was an outbreak of typhoid fever. The peasants were all lying side by side in their huts, and the calves and pigs were running about the floor among the sick. Such dirt there was, and smoke! Unspeakable! I slaved among those people all day, not a crumb passed my lips, but when I got home there was still no rest for me; a switchman was carried in from the railroad; I laid him on the operating table and he went and died in my arms under chloroform, and then my feelings that should've been deadened awoke again, my conscience tortured me as if I had killed the man. I sat down and closed my eyes -- like this -- and thought: will our descendants one or two hundred years from now, for whom we're clearing the way, remember to give us a kind word? No, Nanny, they'll forget us.
MARINA. Man is forgetful, but God remembers.
ASTROV. Thank you for that. You've spoken the truth.
VOYNITSKY. H'm. Yes. [
ASTROV. Have you been asleep?
VOYNITSKY. Yes, very much so. [
MARINA. [
ASTROV. Will they be here much longer?
VOYNITSKY. [
MARINA. Look at this now! The samovar has