His preference for a man of 'tone' —Or him who plays the rugged patchTo millionaires in HazelhatchBut weeping after holy fastConfesses all his pagan past —Or him who will his hat unfixNeither to malt nor crucifixBut show to all that poor-dressed beHis high Castilian courtesy —Or him who loves his Master dear —Or him who drinks his pint in fear —Or him who once when snug abedSaw Jesus Christ without his headAnd tried so hard to win for usThe long-lost works of Eschylus.But all these men of whom I speakMake me the sewer of their clique.That they may dream their dreamy dreamsI carry off their filthy streamsFor I can do those things for themThrough which I lost my diadem,Those things for which Grandmother ChurchLeft me severely in the lurch.Thus I relieve their timid arses,Perform my office of Katharsis.My scarlet leaves them white as woolThrough me they purge a bellyful.To sister mummers one and allI act as vicar-generalAnd for each maiden, shy and nervous,I do a similar kind service.For I detect without surpriseThat shadowy beauty in her eyes,The 'dare not' of sweet maidenhoodThat answers my corruptive would'.Whenever publicly we meetShe never seems to think of it;At night when close in bed she liesAnd feels my hand between her thighsMy little love in light attireKnows the soft flame that is desire.But Mammon places under banThe uses of LeviathanAnd that high spirit ever warsOn Mammon's countless servitorsNor can they ever be exemptFrom his taxation of contempt.So distantly I turn to viewThe shamblings of that motley crew,Those souls that hate the strength that mine hasSteeled in the school of old Aquinas.Where they have crouched and crawled and prayedI stand the self-doomed, unafraid,Unfellowed, friendless and alone,Indifferent as the herring-bone,Firm as the mountain-ridges whereI flash my antlers on the air.Let them continue as is meetTo adequate the balance-sheet.Though they may labour to the graveMy spirit shall they never haveNor make my soul with theirs at oneTill the Mahamanvantara be done:And though they spurn me from their doorMy soul shall spurn them evermore.
(August 1904)
СВЯТАЯ МИССИЯ
Я — катарсис. Я — очищенье.Сие — мое предназначенье.Я не магическая призма,Но очистительная клизма.Оцените ль, друзья, поймете ль,Как мил мне древний Аристотель?Я проституток и кутилПерипатетике учил.Мой образ мыслей не обычен,А крайне перипатетичен,Но толковать меня не надо.Сам изложу свои я взгляды.Итак, любому, полагаю,Стремись он к аду или раю,Для посрамленья сатаныМы отпустить грехи должны.