“How?” I ask, redundantly.
“Just don’t take no for an answer. Push your way back in. But, at the same time, give her nothing. Make her want you, but make her wonder what you want. Show her how much you care, but with no affection.” He grins. “It won’t be pretty, but it’s what she needs. It will take some time and it might feel like it’s getting you nowhere, but in the end, she’ll be putty in your hands, I promise.”
“That sounds like something that would piss her off.” I point out, but even as I’m saying it, I know he’s right…and it amuses me too. I mean, I told her it would all be okay. That nothing mattered as long as she still loved me and believed what I told her about Brooke. I told her confidently that I would show her…and I meant something along these lines I guess. I meant that I would simply find a way of showing her that we had to be together. What I’d envisaged was slightly less devious. But I’m starting to think that being a bit more forceful might be the only way in.
She still loves me, I remind myself…and I’m going to get her back.
Max laughs with a mischievous look in his eyes. “And I know just where to start,” he says.
Chapter Eleven
Liv
I’m not a child...
I drum my fingers on the table impatiently. Where is Max? He knows what time my appointment is. I check my watch, 13:35. We need to leave in ten minutes, he’s cutting it close. I watch Danny restocking the bar. He’s working really hard and I can’t pretend it isn’t having the desired effect. He’s been pretty great actually, even though I’m not quite ready to admit it.
Since I saw him first the other day, he hasn’t pushed me, he’s stopped calling me every hour and has just stayed in the background. Which I know must be really hard for him. I try not to be too obvious watching him, but when he glances up, he catches my eye and smiles. Shit! Thankfully, he has a full tray of glasses to go out to the kitchen and he walks away. I blow out a long breath. It’s harder not being with him than I thought it would be. Not that I could just magically trust him. But it still aches to be near him and not with him.
My mind drifts into an inappropriate daydream, which I quickly shut down. I can't allow these thoughts just because he’s being helpful, I scold myself but not quickly enough to stop the hot flush from sweeping over me. I hope no one notices. I look up to see if I got away with it and find him standing over me with his jacket on. I frown.
He extends his hand to help me up. “I’m taking you.” He explains when he sees how confused I am.
“Where’s Max?” I ask as I allow him to help me up.
“Taking the day off,” he replies as if it’s of little consequence.
“But he said he would take me to the hospital.”
“Well, I offered and he accepted,” he says, all pleased with himself.
“And no one wanted to discuss it with me?” I feel furious all of sudden. “I’m not a child, Danny.” I huff as I push past him with my crutches.
“Nobody thinks you are a child, Liv. I just thought it made more sense than him coming in especially.”
I’m out the door, while he’s still talking. Then it occurs to me, how are we going to get there? I turn to Danny to see him pulling keys from his pocket. Maybe he has borrowed Max’s car. To my left, a swanky silver Range Rover unlocks and Danny scoots round me to open the passenger door. I’ve no idea what is going on, my face must be a picture. While he goes around to the driver’s door, I try to smooth out my features into indifference. I’m still annoyed that they sorted this out without consulting me.
The new car smell is overwhelming. “Whose car is this?” I can’t help but ask, as he climbs in.
“Mine,” he says with boyish pride. “Like it?’
“You bought a car?”
“Uh-huh.” He manoeuvres this monster out of the space.
My mind races through all the questions…
1) Are you staying then?
2) Are you that sure I’ll take you back?
3) Have you already moved?
4) Where is your stuff?
5) Where will you live?
6) Should I be happy or furious that all of this has been decided without me?
I manage to run through this silently without a multitude of facial expressions, but I’m sure he knows what I’m thinking as he sits smugly beside me at the wheel of his new car.
“It’s nice,” I manage meekly. How much did it cost is all I can think. I don’t know how much money he makes, it’s none of my business, but he has two other cars already. Unless…no, he wouldn’t sell her, would he? Not on the off chance we could get back together. I can’t believe he’s bought a brand-new car, here. He must be intent on staying. I’ve refused to ask him what his plans are, but I’d assumed that he would go home at some point. This says otherwise.
“Oh and this is my new cell number,” he says, as he hands me a folded piece of paper without taking his eyes off the road. I silently accept it and glance at the number. It has no plusses or strange numbers in front of it. It starts with a zero seven…it’s a plain old British mobile number. He has a UK mobile! Once again, I hope that none of these calculations and the questions they prompt are evident in my face as I try to maintain an air of indifference. I’m not asking him about it…I’m just not!
We ride in silence to the hospital and he parks the beast nice and close for me. It isn’t discussed whether he will wait in the waiting room for me, or come in to hold my hand – metaphorically speaking. While I want to tell him not to come in, I’m slightly nervous about what they’ll do, so I say nothing and wait to see what he does.
“Olivia Harper.” The nurse calls from the door.
Danny’s hand is in front of me before I can react and he picks up my jacket and bag as he follows me into the room with the nurse. I suppress a grin and chastise myself. But, like it or not, I’m a bit pleased that he thinks it’s his place to accompany me.
The fresh air to my skin is the most surreal feeling. My leg is mortifyingly hairy, but what can I do? On either side of my ankle are four-inch angry scars that I can’t take my eyes off.
“Whoa!” says Danny beside me in horrified wonder. He almost seems impressed.
“Yeah, Whoa.” I agree. I can’t believe it either. I’ve been so detached from this leg that I’d no idea what to expect, but this seems really dramatic.
The nurse sets about removing the stitches. Some are quite painful, but Danny’s hand clasps mine as I suck air through my teeth. He seems to know just how to be. Max has been fantastic and he would do this for me, if a little green around the gills. But I have to admit, I’ve been needing Danny’s strong comfort since this happened.
“Wait here,” he says, as we emerge from the entrance of the hospital. “I’ll bring the car over.”
“No, it’s fine, this thing is light as a feather now, I can hop easily.” I smile wiggling my new purple ‘normal’ cast in front of me. I feel so much better, even though it will be another six weeks before I’m allowed to put any weight on it, just being rid of that heavy bandage has made such a difference.
We walk back to the car together and he helps me in. I sigh as I watch him coming round. I feel it happening already. I must hold off, let him do what he needs to do to build my trust again. But it’s hard. We haven’t talked once about that night with Brooke since I gave him the chance to explain it to me. But I looked him in the eyes as he told me and I knew it was the truth. Not just because it was what I wanted to hear, I know him and I know he was being honest. Now I just have to figure out what more I want from him before I give in.
If I believe him, why haven't I fallen into his arms? I think I need more, some proof of his love. No, he is doing that really... It's more that I need proof that he loves me like I love him. I've spent so many years struggling with the imbalance in our affections, which left me utterly heartbroken. Now he’s suggesting that he felt the same. Well I want to see it. I want evidence that he loves me as much, if not more than I love him. I don’t want to feel like the weak one in our relationship anymore. I'm not sure if that's reasonable, but I don't care. It's what I
