“I used to make you happy.” He sighed.
I bit my lip trying to not explode. “Yeah, and then you know what you did to terminate any happiness you brought me.”
He was on his feet in a second. “Oh, really? You turned into an uber jealous bitch but ‘I know what I did!’”
I slammed back from my own chair squaring up to him, “Oh, of course. Me, the jealous one. Not that you and that creature pushed me completely out of your life. Not that you abandon me. Betrayed me and left me to die. Fuck this shit, I am leaving. I shouldn’t have bothered coming here.”
He grabbed my arm so hard that his fingers would leave bruises behind. “Oh no, you started this, and you are gonna finish it for once. You are going to realise that it is perfectly normal and healthy for a dating couple to want time together alone without some third wheel always being there!”
“Third wheel? I was meant to be your best friend!”
He laughed bitterly. “Yeah, until you turned into a stalker bitch and refused to allow me to move on with my life.”
My mouth fell open at that comment. “I stopped you moving on. Me? When every single time you walked out of my life, I slowly picked myself up and started to rebuild or I might even be stupid enough to find someone. And then you would crash back into my life, demanding every last second of my time to fix whatever little problem you had now. For weeks, months until they ended up dumping me because you were so damn clingy and demanding! Not to mention the fact that everything you found a new person you would always play the ‘I don’t know Lily, maybe we should try again’ card on me. Flirting with me, messing with my head and my heart until you would fuck off for a weekend and come back with the other person as your new fuck buddy and serious relationship!”
“You were the one who never accepted my lovers…”
“Your lovers treated me like dirt. Insulted me all the time.”
He cut across me. “You were friends with him before we got together and still you ordered me to choose between you two!”
“No, I did not. I am so sick of you saying that! I reminded you that you said that if any partner of yours didn’t like me, you would fix it or dump them. You promised me that! That my friendship was more important than a fuck. You just weren’t man enough to sit there and fix it or say fuck you bitch; Lily is my friend so take it or leave it!”
“That’s basically the same thing. He never asked me to get rid of you!”
I laughed. “Really? You actually believe that? This is hysterical! So explain to me what was telling you to ignore my calls? What was telling you to turn your phone off to watch a movie when we had plans? What was ‘ditch Lily tonight and have dinner with me? You know you want a sushi date more than a movie with her. Why don’t you skip out on her and come shopping with me, she is such a drag? Oh, don’t take Lily on tour with you, I am so much more useful! Every single time we had plans, he pulled you away, took your phone or decided he would crash our time together. Spending the whole time demanding to be the centre of attention so I might as well not even have been there. Hell, he even made out with you when I was sat right there! How fucking awkward do you think that is? Sat there watching a movie and you start moaning as he sucks your dick! He said choose me over Lily a thousand ways and you just said of course dear, I love you. And then threw me out your life completely blaming me for everything because he is such an innocent little angel. He fucking gaslighted me, and you let him, you fucking eejit!”
If he hadn’t been so shaken by my shouting, he might have laughed when I accidently slipped into the Irish lingo. Had he been manipulated by his boyfriend all of this time? It couldn’t be, could it? He decided to bluster his way through the fight. “Well, you were the one who never wanted to hang out with any of my friends. Maybe it was you who never accepted them.”
I rolled my eyes. “No one in your life ever had a nice word to say about me. All they ever wanted to do was say shit about me or make side comments that I wasn’t good enough for you. Even singing Taylor Swift when we broke up when I was right there.”
He took pause at that; it was mostly true. People in his life had said some extremely hurtful stuff both in person to him and in the background of calls he had been on with her. “You took it the wrong way.”
I wasn’t finished yet. “As for not accepting your dates. I did try, but I gave up when they abused me. You always pick toxic assholes other than that British guy, I liked him, he was nice.”
“He fucking broke my heart, he cheated on me! But, hey of course that’s the one you actually like! Perfect!”
“Yeah, I did like him. He gave us space and time together without always watching. He understood the basic fact that you need friend time as well as date time to be healthy. He never intruded on our time. He even backed off and went to make dinner so we could talk when I was upset and accidently crashed your date. If I text you and he was there, he always text back to tell me you were busy with him and gave a rough
