“He still cheated.”
“No, I don’t think he did,” I said firmly. “I think that your paranoia from smoking endless amounts of weed told you that he cheated because you couldn’t cope with being in a healthy place and treated right. So, because you didn’t have that abuse or toxic shit in the relationship, your druggie's mind made up another lover to explain where he was when he gave us space. Then you ‘cheated’ on him too to ‘make it right’ and he dumped you for it. And to be honest, I don’t blame him for leaving. You are a total asshole when you are high.”
“Fuck you, you know nothing about me or him or my life. I hate you,” he spat.
I shook my head sadly. “And I pity you. The mess you have become, thanks to your addictions and that man fuelling them. I’m done, goodbye.”
And then, he was left all alone with his thoughts.
Hours later, Adrian found me staring at the window of my hotel room. An empty bottle at my feet smashed, blood pouring from a wound on my wrist that I used the broken glass to slash at. My breath stank of whisky as he pulled me near. I didn’t react to his touch as he used his shirt to clean up my wrist. Stemming the flow of blood as best he could. There was only one person who could get me like this. “What did he do now?” Ade demanded.
“I had to go to his addiction counselling.”
“And?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“He is not worth doing this over,” He snapped. “At least let me clean this up properly if ye won’t talk.”
I did, letting him clean the wound and then bandage it. Before pulling me onto the bed to hug away my pain.
Chapter 31
Lily’s POV
I woke thenext morning; my arm was re-bandaged with clean cloth. Adrian was gone, the bed still warm so it hadn’t been for long. A tray of breakfast waited for me on the nightstand. My suitcases were packed, waiting patiently at the end of my bed. It was a travel day today, so we would be leaving soon. Adrian even laid out a long sleeve shirt with my travel outfit so I wouldn’t have to have any awkward conversations with the band before I was ready. I think that was actually his shirt, not mine. It was undeniably sweet considering we weren’t dating anymore. Noticing that the tour bus would be leaving soon, I showered and ate fast. Rushing down with my cases to meet the others.
Adrian looked up at me as I came down, looking me over to make sure that the bandage was hidden before taking my bags off me to put them away, preventing me from hurting my arm any further.
“Thanks,” I said quietly before heading to my bunk. When I pulled the curtain back, I found a cloth bag full of snacks and soda, all my usual types. Along with a note ‘Figured you wouldn’t have time, keep safe. No man is ever worth losing your life over’. Aww, I couldn’t help but feel my cold stone heart melting at that. I cuddled up on the bunk with my bear. Maybe it was finally time to start reading those emails. All sixty-seven of them.
Lily, I have no excuse. I should never have done what I did. I was too shit scared of losing you. I thought it would be easier if you never knew. I never thought how manipulative that was or how close it was to what he did to you. I am sorry. I love you. Adrian.
Lily, please. I would give my heart and soul if I could have just one last phone call with you. Please.
Lily, don’t let one mistake ruin our future please. I love you.
Lily, don’t make me live without you. I don’t know if I can. You are everything to me. You came into my life and threw it on its head. I don’t know how youse did it, but I have become a new man because of you. A man who can love and does with all his heart. And he loves you. Please.
When we got off at the hotel, Adrian carried my bags again, right to my room before going back for his own. I waited for him down in the lobby.
“Do you need something?” he asked.
“I read the emails.”
“All of them?”
“Yeah.”
“Okay, and what do you think?”
“Maybe we could find a way to be friends again.”
Adrian smiled. “I would like that very much.”
“Give me some time.”
“As long as ye need darling, I will be right here waiting for youse. Whatever it takes, I am willing to go all in on this.”
Chapter 32
Adrian’s POV
Callum and Teddy crashed into my room, both completely trashed, waking me up. “What the fuck you two? I only just go to bed after the goddamn interviews! Some of us don’t get to knock off as soon as the stage clears!” I bitched, “What fucking time is it?”
“Ade, look, I’m sorry, but we need to talk. It’s about Lily,” Callum said.
Teddy nodded. “She isn’t herself.”
I jumped out of bed, pulling my jeans back on. “Is she hurt? Where is she?”
They looked at each other nervously. “Not exactly hurt,” Callum commented.
“Just tell me what the fuck is going on before I throw ye both out on ye asses and go back to bed,” I snapped.
Callum sighed, “Look Ade, I don’t want you to get angry, but
